I simply wanted to dance and prance around after physics and history exam.. yes they were SO BAD. i'd be lucky to pass for history and if i pass physics i'll eat my socks. BUT. that's it. THE END. say goodbye. no more pretending i wanna find out wad's the resultant force of bouncing balls. no more burning midnight oil wondering whether hitler is lucky or smart. (and knowing whatever you choose is also correct but you'll still fail due to ur inadequate essay skills.)

ANW, i was reading this fellow 16-year-old accquaintance's blog. and omygod la i feel so deprived. ppl talk abt parties and beach suntanning and getting drunk... and i talk abt... eating my socks. -.- I feel like a freaking nerd!! & thus i decided to write the LAST history essay of my life. bear with me.

"Eunice is a total NERD." How far do you agree to this statement?

Whether Eunice is a nerd or not is a topic that has been frequently discussed. 160cm tall with a pink aura, eunice seems to give off a feeling of airheaded-ness rather than nerdiness. However, startling evidence recently has proven eunice to be a nerd.

1. Eunice was seen mugging at the library with wenwen before the LA exam!! like, how nerd is that. (totally.) everyone around them changed three times, while they squat at one small corner and discussed role of women in society. (WHICH DID NOT COME OUT FOR THE BLOODY EXAM!!!) This shows that eunice is a mugger and hence, a nerd.

2. Eunice actually discussed history on the phone with three people. This further shows her kiasu-ness and her determination to do well. It isn't normal to discuss history with people on the phone. hence, eunice is a nerd.

3. Eunice has spent HER WHOLE weeks and hours and hours MUGGING MUGGING MUGGGINGGGGGG. SHE IS A MUGGER!! mugger = eunice = nerd. thus, eunice is a nerd.

The above evidence showcases the nerdiness of eunice. however, to say that eunice is a total nerd would be inaccurate, becos nothing is total in history. (or so teachers like to say). eunice was seen eating sakura buffet happily with her family! (omygod it rocks) eunice was also seen watching the movie secret again before the exam (it was an accident), and shopping after exams at vivo, parkway with her fellow crazy classmates. eunice has also adventured to holland village in a rainy day, jumped around to hail a cab, and laughed like crazy. :) eunice is a happy girl.

All in All, i agree with the statement to a large extent. eunice is a happy nerd!!



see why i fail history?

:) i cant believe how lucky i am.. to have our paths crossed again.. i can only think.. my prayers are finally answered.

you said; "you're hiding something from me."

"i learn it from you." i said, half jokingly, half serious.

you looked away, changing the subject.



Because it's true, isnt it?

You were the one who built a wall around you, separating us. you shut me out, and you expect me to keep banging on the wall, maybe punch a hole through it, only to have you closing up again. it's tiring, you know? now i've walked away... and you've realised it only too late.

if only you listened with your heart, you'll realise that there's so many things that i'd love to share. but.. i wouldnt. becos i knw that you simply refuse to tell me the things i need to hear from you.

i've never been so happy. yet so alone.

Chasing my dreams, is just a distraction for me.

time now is 2am. and i've just finished my mock UN project.. where we're representing Saudi Arabia.. o.o so glam hor. lol.

there's so much i wanna say, but so little there is to be said. keep feeling that way recently... all i knw is that everyone around me, even the slackest of the slack, 吃不好。睡不好.. everyone's worried and stressed up, and so is watashiwa.

9 more days to end of years exam. 1 more month to freedom!!

this shall be my last post. cos letting my fingers feel this familiar keyboard is a luxury. they should be drawing graphs. they should be scribbling essays. they should be doing calculations. they should be nibbled hard when i'm thinking. (yes yes i can hear all of your violent objecions. i WILL quit biting my nails- after exams)

i can hardly wait till after exams... there's soooo much i wanna do.. & this few mths have been hell. to give u an idea...


this is wad my whiteboard is abt.. more things to add everyday. now even worse k.



my motivation. my loves. my everything. watashiwa drawing of watashiwa family.



and ohmygod. i realise short fringe were the "in" thing. since when i was small.


hahahaha. my hair looks like a bun.

*missing you... safe flight home, woman.

Been a long time since i wrote a decent post. I won't flood photos today! although i have a couple of photos here with me, taken during the picnic {in school} earlier on. It was fun, but towards the end, it was a little screwed up. but, what done cannot be rectified! ( :

I need the answer now Father.
If not now, as soon as possible please?
Because the way you are making me happy with my friends
and leaving me all alone at night to think of
the bleedy bad speculations,
it really ain't good for my brain.

Because after the efforts to remember the facts needed
a few weeks later,
it's tedious to worry for something.

But why can someone be so nonchalant about it,
they don't even remember that they have something to worry about.























Can eating apples forget about worrying?

today i realise that when people say, "i know how you feel..".. it's a lie.

becos they dont. they might think they do. but fact is, they dont.

i should know, i alws say that. becos i alws thought i knew. or perhaps i thought it'd make the person feel better.. today i realise that until it happens to you, you wont knw how it feels..

you can try to understand, try to feel.. try to imagine what it must be like.. try to say the right words.. all these makes a difference...

but the bottomline is. you dont know.


for all i know, i may not know what i'm feeling too. i'm sick of struggling to find the right words.. sick of trying to say sth which is i dun even know what. perhaps some things are better left unsaid.

-.- i bet no one has any idea wad i'm talking abt. which, in another sense, is what i'm talking abt. HAHA.

rah. i'm sick of differentiating all those stupid X's, den integrating them back to get the same stupid X's again. why differentiate them in the first place if you're going to get them back?!? and anyway, the whole process is stupid. im so traumatised by maths quiz.

attended a wedding last night. feels good to dress up again! though knowing you're eating a hundred dollar dinner feels =x.. (can i have the hundred dollars instead? haha!) the ambience was so good. real unusual wedding dinner, where everyone sat in small sofa-tables... any number at any table!



mummy and daddy blended in with the table cloth. lolol..
eurgh!! ugly fringe. :(

and the most embarassing thing happened. see, my mummy has 13 or 14 siblings and some of them are grand people liao... i'm supposedly attending the wedding of my niece.. and... i have no idea who she is. so i went up to this girl standing at the door in a white dress and said "congratulations!!" den... i realised she's the bridesmaid. oh god.

it's alws the same. you say hi. they ask u how old you are, from what school. then they say, oh how fast you've grown! you smile. a few months later, they meet you and ask you how old you are, and from what school.. and.. you realise they've never remembered you in the first place.

strange isnt it? i'm so close to my daddy's relatives, but my mummy's relatives i cant even recognise. i feel like a mixblood. -.- cos daddy's family are so buddhist, and mummy's so christian. every time my uncles start talkin to me abt god my daddy's face changes. lol. kinda amusing really... i have two pastors and two monks & a nun related to me.. o.O

but we're all family. and i find it amazing how total strangers come tgt becos of a so-called blood bond.. cos it's sth that'll nv break.. that's really forever. unlike the bond even btw the closest of frens. or even the sweetest couple. till when two gets married, their whole lives become intertwined. everyone they knew gets tgt to celebrate the marriage. two whole families get joined tgt.... somehow i cant wait till i find that person, someone who i want to share everything i've ever known with. someone who i can trust just like i'll trust my bloodbonded family. but.. how is it possible? is it possible to trust someone so much, to give your entire life to him? after everything i've learnt... i dont see how. my mum said when she met my dad at 14, she knew she'll give her whole life to him. =) i hope i'll surprise myself when i meet the right one.

see, you dnknw wad im talking abt again. =( lolol!

August 10

SENTOSA with siying and xinci (: Luge and Skyride.

I'll try not screaming ' I LOVE YOU ' when i'm halfway in mid air in future =/ i did that on the skyride, and the angmoh in front actually turned and waved at me!

So we tried taking photos while we were dangling up there. Our hands were trembling though, couldn't get a photo with all three of us in it, this is the best among the many we tried !


































HAHA, I choose to take it alone (:






































LUGE.
hehe, i came off first. took a photo of them with the stupid looking helmets. hehs. yep, i didn't take a picture of me with that helmet, ugly !













erm, before we met up with the 6/11 girls, we swopped our shoes. so which is mine? haha. It took them at least ten minutes to realise we are not wearing matching slippers!











Group photo before the movie <3>














HAH! NANA CARRYING ME! I LOVE to be piggybacked! i'm happy to be carried, she's sad to carry! lalal!


After the movie. oh yah, the movie is secret. We spent hours disputing over the ending. and after forcing so many of my other friends to watch it just to tell me what they think is the ending, im more certain i'm right.

Selina & Co : He died in the end, if not why will they want to focus on the blood dripping.... BLAHBLAHBLAH

ME : SHUT UP, I'm calling JAY now!

Ke-ren (;









Dinosaur no 3









NANA the retard























Went back and slept on my comfy bed. Woke up 4 hours later to go malaysia. hmphs. i really loathe to be woken up when i'm sleeping. I really want to switch off my phone when i'm in my lala-land, but i scared i'll receive some really important calls. haha.

But, so far, they are all calls to ask me out or PRANK CALLS. jidan!

Went back to Malaysia, played with KangKang again. Chatted with my great grandma, upset over the things that has happened or is going to happen. Worried for her and everything.

That made a day, and i'm now back home. With tons of tuition homework undone, and revision yet to complete.

So i redrafted the Study plan i did, and now, promise to follow it.
And yes, the load seems lighter now because i've decided to say Bye-Bye to Biology (:












Bye all, study hard (;

i must be stupid must be crazy must be out of my mind.

SINGAPORE! I LOVE U.

<3 I'll Miss You/ TANG! says:
WE ARE SINGAPORE
<3 I'll Miss You/ TANG! says:
WE ARE SINGAPORE
4B ! pinkaholic ت ~ says:
WE WILL STAND TGT HEAR THE LION ROAR!!!
<3 I'll Miss You/ TANG! says:
LALALALALALALA FOREVER MORE
<3 I'll Miss You/ TANG! says:
oh rly
<3 I'll Miss You/ TANG! says:
hahha not forever more ah

omygod lousy. and to think i thought ms. tang wen yi is a true blue Singaporean. She has been officially downgraded to a true pink Singaporean. though im nt sure whether that's upgrade or downgrade hahahaha.

happy b'day, Singapore! i dnknw how to say it. except that i knw that this is home. this is all i've ever known. this place contains my past, my future, my very existence. =)

old classics have been in my mind all day.. EVERYBODY MUS SING.
*one people, one nation, one Singapore! that's the way it ought to be, forever more~
*Count on me, Singapore...! x2 Count on me to give my best and more. Together Singapore singapore.
*this is my country! this is my flag! this is my future! this is my life! these are my family! these are my friends! we're Singapore, Singaporeans.
*Where i Belong, where i keep my heart and soul, where dreams come true for us... Where we walk tgt hand in hand towards a future so bright..
*Deep in my heart, i just know, right from the start.. we will grow..
*This is home, truly, as my senses tell me..

lalala go bang wall if u dnknw how to sing k.

CAUGHT JAY'S SECRET. IT'S DAMN GOOD. i sooo feel like jumping in and being part of the story or just hugging him!! HAHAHA. oh god oh god. it's GOOD.

wad are you doing, eunice?

Oh haha, i see that eunice happily entrusted me to upload loads of photos. Apparently, i don't have so many photos to upload. I'm more interested in your hair now. LOLS.

I've drafted my study plan, smart right? I hope i will stick to it, closely. Good thing is, now i cannot sleep without doing some revision. Like what shir says, everyone is secretly studying at home, leaving me behind. and Prelims really is pressing near, really loathe it when my only humans is like in a bleedy big mess. I don't know if i'm prejudiced against the teacher that i feel that she might as well don't come for lessons. haha. But, yi ri wei shi, zhong sheng wei fu ! [ [pink, i know you won't understand my chim chinese ] ] oh lalalal~ and not to mention that i've been skipping literature lessons. but hey ! it's better than staying in class looking at people sleep, eat, only a handful of students is listening to the teacher ! Rahh, shouldn't be screwing up my only beloved humans ) :

i.. don't know what to blog about! i have alot of things running through my mind, feel like living without my brain for once.

photos, see pink i listen to you. haha. You'd better upload photos of YOUR FRINGE XD

























My hair was red okay! see how much i love spore despite being a malaysian ! haha ! nah, actually i love it when everyone come together for the same purpose. Maybe All my friends can come together and plan a wonderful birthday celebration for me ! ahem eunice !

























err, this photo is to refresh your memory, in case youi've forgotten how i look like. ( :

i dont like to turn the radio on
just to find out i missed my favourite song
i dont like to have the rain on my shoes
but i do love you.

feelings can grow but, they can fade away too...
too true.

=/ if only hair grows as fast as feelings. i went to sleep praying that i'll wake up with long fringe... i woke up and guess what?! i have short fringe. like, wow. hahaha. heaven knws im just kidding...

it's wad i call "red" day tmr! beware of bulls people. and for the benefit of those who doesnt take bio, BULLS DO NOT HAVE MILK. and for the benefit of those who take bio, it's unwise to put SQUEEZE MILK FROM BULL TO SEE IF IT HAS BEEN BREEDED TRUE in your bio test.

it doesnt hurt. i dont care.
it doesnt hurt. i dont care.
it doesnt hurt. i dont care.
yes eunice. -.-

ugh i'm hit with a wave of nostalgia.. reading blogs is really bad for health.

maths quiz has been postponed again. which is a good thing and a bad thing. a bad thing because it means i have to study for it over the holidays... and a good thing because screw maths and start making plans!!! hahaha oxymoron.

and omygawd hann. i went through another failure hair cut again... the auntie was like, "cut fringe?" me: *nods. den... "OMYGOD NOT SO SHORT!!!" so yea. short fringe eunice. i'm never cutting hair again. or maybe i'll shave my head and hide in africa for the rest of my life. well, look on the bright side, at least i can skip maths quiz. on the downside, i cant sing "no place like home". HAHAH.

I LIKE THAT SONG.. today ms. low somehow mentioned that song and me and meiyun looked at eachother and naturally... *belts out loudly* there's no place i'd rather be!!! u'll alws be a part of MEEEeeEEe. and even though~~~ i've roamed the world, IT'S STILL MY HOME I LONG TO SEE!!! <3 hahahaha i'm such a true blue singaporean, born and bred here. i love singapore.. :) wenwen and i were saying, soon, i can foresee half my classmates halfway round the globe studying or working in other countries... but me and wen, we'll alws be here. our families, friends, and everything we've ever known is here... *sings* we're singapore, singaporeans. : D woah sense of patriotism.

falling in love with shopping again.. somebody slap me NOWwwWww. my sweet mummy bought me a lil pig to encourage me to study.. :) it's called "mugger!!" haha. and daddy bought me chicken essence. =( which taste like shit. but anywaeee. I.MUST.DO.WELL.

been long since i upload photos, cos cam is with sis in auzzie. and anyway, i'm depressed everytime i look into the mirror with my oh-so-short fringe.. so.. YEEHAN DO UR JOB PUT PHOTOS LAH.

and uhh.. yeehan.. regarding my sickness.. uhh.. actually... uhhh... i developed a sickness because... uhhh... you know you know... some idiot (hannie shld knw who) uhh... wanted me to uhh. go sentosa to sun tan... and uhh.. in a moment of folly... i uhh, accepted and.. uhh.. regretted.. so... uhh... i suddenly felt feverish on the uhh, day we were supposed to go.. but uhh, my fever somehow just evaporated the minute we changed the plans to shopping.. uhh. so miraculous hor? :) NOPES DUN INFER ANYTING... shh! pretty pls keep it a secret! that idiot is happily tanned anyway. : D

lalala. i'm so happy with my plans. ytd was far east, pasta, large coke, neoprints. today was tm, kfc, shopping!, new pouch, mugger, and green apple red bubble tea! tomorrow is chinatown, good food and bargains!! (that's if i survive 3 period chinese tmr) haha. wednesday is celebration, den watching secret! thurs is (maybe) dinner and watching fireworks. friday is shopping at orchard and the simpsons. saturday is my auntie's wedding dinner! and sunday is for sleeping! :)

excellent. life's good. eat, drink, and be happy! yea right. just kidding. i have no life. i'm a full-fletched mugger.

life's hard.

Haha! i'm superkelifragilisitcespialidocius {however you spell this damnword} HAPPY !

I'm excited about tomorrow, because it's one whole day with my honey<3>

FRIDAY; SENTOSA THEN MOVIE. haha ! CAPS TO HIGHLIGHT ITS IMPORTANCE ( : meeting up with 6/11 girls! i'm really very excited. After the movie, it will be night time, then it will be so romantic, admiring the dark velvet sky ! (: i'm so full of rubbish. actually it's because of me that it turned out to be at night, i had to come up with one wonderful reason why it's at night right! ( : and selina, i didn't remember pulling down your pants eh! ( :

i'm talking no sense, because i'm a little excited. :DDDDDDDDDDD not little, but very /HAPPY

Today's chemistry test was funny, light hearted. all thanks to my beloved chemistry teacher.














stupid teacher [he's actually the nicest on earth] , kept distracting me during the test, so if i don't do well, HIS FAULT !

RAHH, IM OFF TO STUDY. EUNICE YOU SHOULD TOO. TAKE CARE TOO. HEARD YOU ARE SICK ( :

>> Tell me what's there at BATAM too, i'm going there during september! seems fun though! my younger brother insists on not going.
he says, " 32480 people were affected, 200 died of it." i was like " what's the IT " he said, " QIN LIU GAN"

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YYYYY

One day, i lost this friend. I didn't know how it happened, but it just did.

Just yesterday, i found her back <3

admit it, girl. you just want to see him again.
because the way he looks like you..
it's like you're something else in his eyes.
just like the way he used to look at you.

i'm missing my sister so goddamn much. funny, i talk to her more on the phone than i do when she's home, but somehow i just want her here.. =(

going shopping tmr after LA project.. darn that weifu who has firmly decided to meet at an insane hour, AGAIN. and if i'm late he'll probably leave for junya's hse without me and cut my name out of the project. see people, life's hard for me. =( i'm living under weifu's dictatorship. stress!! HAHA.

anw cant wait to be out with CME -namely cynthia, meiyun, and eunice. HAHAH. yeah latest girl group. we're not much different from SHE luh huh. cynthia can sing, i can dance, and meiyun can do all the spastic acts. =) and we can alws try to rap the china rap. -.- jkjk! i can imagine SHE fans puking. hehs.

still cant believe we were spastic enough to join some crap counting money record day. all cynthia's fault.. she tempted us into joining, our only reason for joining is to attempt to steal some $. -_-

hungry hungry very very. time for chicken rice!

yes. life's still hard. :(

your eyes have betrayed you.

....

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

i think it's about not being able to welcome August yet. The mixed feelings in me, i really loathe them. As much as i want to end this O's as soon as possible, the other half of my being had been trying really hard to tell me that i will not do well for O's and hence i'm dreading it's arrival. I will be presented with disappointments, my parents' words ringing by my ears every moment, and maybe i wouldn't know how to look into my teachers' eyes, teachers who placed high hopes in teaching me.

Sometimes i feel torn being myself and another myself. I have no problem being confident in front of everyone, even when i step into the examination hall, previously. Yet, when placed in front of a mirror, all i see is a strong shell with nothing beneath. I am so scared, even before i hold the pen. It would be such a joke to be beaten by pure facts and formulas.

Whatever it is, Prelims nearing, O's after it. I really want to embrace them with confidence and not finish my papers with uncertainties. But, i really don't know where to start. I feel very much like giving up on Biology though. As much as Paper 2 is smiling at me, it's not helping when paper 1 is going to pull me way down. ):

Alright, August has come and is going to give way to September,October and finally my long awaited November. Birthdays are crashing down, no, arriving like rain drops from the sky. Happy Birthday Linda, i'm sorry i've yet to get your present. Happy birthday Cherry, I bought your present, just waiting for you to ask me out (: Happy birthday jianee, urm, a meal with you i agree! Then soon it will be my dad's, brother's, tsesee's, brother's, mum's, mine, cher's. Really upset, because i don't think i can celebrate them with my fullest energy, half of me will be occupied with formulas which i'm certain i am not going to touch them after i graduate, the other half trying to convince myself that i am capable of good results.

Yeps, i can. Because i am Yuhan (: