heyyyys! it's me again. eu!


imagine if you're the winner of a grand prize of an lucky draw.. everyday, you get $86400 deposited into your bank, and there's no control as to how you're gonna use it. The only condition is that the amount of money you don't spend dissapears. won't you spend the $86400 given to you everyday wisely? or will you just let it disappear...? will you be scared that one day, you'll wake up and find no $86400?



same thing. everyday, we get 86400 seconds given to us, totally free. it cannot be saved for another day. will you spend every second wisely, or will you sit and watch them fly by? most of us just think.. "there's always tomorrow." but what if one day you go to sleep and never wake up? what if there is just no more 86400 seconds for you one day... you wouldnt waste a dollar, but you would waste a second.. why?



haha.



today the zuowen topic is "teenagers nowadays are fortunate." i know all the things to write, all the cliche "no war, no national disaster, no worries" thingy. but somehow, i just don't think we're fortunate at all... yea, we have good studying systems, we produce talents and good citizens. but.. compared to other teens of other times, other countries, i cant help but feel like i have so much less. my world now revolves around school, and family. it might be considered a good life, but i nv knew what was bad. i nv knew what war felt like, i nv knew what it was like to just do something wild and crazy without worrying.. if u put me in the real world, i doubt i'll survive.



instead now im just stressing over stupid things like tests and projects and wadever crap. it feels like hard work never guarantees results. so much for the integrated programme. it basically means you skip o'lvls and do alot of bull instead. im sick and tired of all the crap the school conducts, yes yes i appreciate the effort, but im so not in the mood for workshops, excursions, & camps! just let me study will you... first you strip us of our time, you dun drill us as much, den you complain we aint doing well.. like, wth. it's sick when every teacher comes in and says the same thing. YES i know we aint doing well.. but it's not like we din try right? ROARness.



damn sian lor. and im still visiting my relatives every other night to bai nian. honestly, i think im related to half of singapore, one way or another.. i went to this so-and-so house and i saw a mediacrop artiste. LOL. i nv even knew...! and know what's the funniest thing? im his aunty. like, omg. dat's what happens when your mum has thirteen older siblings who are all grandpeople now. lol.





on a different note, im beginning to like eds dance more and more. =) it doesnt feel nice not to be in a prestigious cca.. like when our class goal includes "gold with honours" due to all the hard-core banders, weifu was like, YAH RIGHT. EDS SURE SPOIL IT ONE. wahhh lao..! alright.. so maybe i've got to admit our chances of gold with honors is as slim as me suddenly floating to the moon, but STILL.. we can hope right? at least we have nice people.



We finally completed our dance on monday!! omygawd i cant help but cheer out loud when i FINALLY heard the closing music... we've been hearing the opening bars for so many months.. finally hear the end liao.. i like our dance... =) loads of polishing to do though. and my knees are like, permanently bruised now. ouch. & sore neck and feet doesnt help.





to someone out there, who should know who after reading someone out there, don't. i know you're feeling confused now. but actually.. the way i see it, no amount of thinking or talking about it helps. even making up your mind wouldnt help. i don't know how to tell you. but it scares me that you don't trust, that you don't mind. i don't know if you like distance, cos a long time ago you chose just-for-fun over true. so why think so much?


i bought a postcard holder the other day, and i went to dig out all my postcards... yes i kept them all. i love postcards! haha.. we were so close, what went wrong?
will i receive one from you? hint hint! x)


wad a wordy post. alright i'll reward you with a picture dat got my mum and sis going AHHHHHHHH!!! (okay lah me too)






OMG he's really my eyecandy. :) super duper cute.

mock nafa today..! nafa's a nightmare to some, but simply a test to me. i still feel nervous, though i know i will ace.. cos i jus wanna jump/reach the few extra cms.. do more pull ups and situps. persist and run. hehe yeehan should know! we challenged eachother in sec1 to do >35 pull ups in 30secs. and to my surprise, we succeeded. nafa taught me that everyone has different physical abilities though.. sit and reach requires so much more effort to me than any others. but it's a breeze for other people. =(

sth din go my way today. and i got upset. it's been long since i got emo. in the end it was just a silly misunderstanding, but i felt surprised at myself for letting such a small thing affect me.. =x



prayer of francis: god, grant me strength to accept the things i cannot change.

it shouldnt matter. but it does.
i thought i din care anymore. but i do.

but what matters is not who was dere, but who will be dere.

tanyeehan has just been Nudged x 10000 times.. (mental image of yuhan vibrating) Roar. for breaking yet another long-planned appointment with me.. =(

新年快乐！！

=）happy new year everyone!! hehe. it's like, 12.33am now.. and guess wad? dere're about 50 people cramped into my house now. phew. they've been here since dinner. (which is a success, if i may say so myself) i need some space and quiet~. so ta-daa! here i am to rant!

RANT RANT RANT.

new year is here again! loves! new clothes. new shoes. new bags. new accessories. reunion dinner. counting down. dressing up! chocolates and sweets! angbaos! food! card games n jokes. who wouldnt love new year? =D

i love my relatives. my cousins especially. though they keep conning me wiv stupid magic tricks! =x haha. okay fine. so im a little slow. sue me!

on friday we had a free day! met up with 4B girls n we went to ms.low's (my form teacher) house for lunch! i love ms. low..! it's really very brave and kind of her to offer food and housing for 3 classes! haha. and the food was really really good.

pls dun kill me, ms. low if u ever this... i jus think she looks SO good that you all have GOT to see this. =D



so pretty worhx! hehe.


i enjoyed myself! spamming spastic photos.. lol. and the 4B yu sheng was really crazy too. i think after our haul there was more yusheng on the table than on the plate. but oh well. nvm. let's hope the whole of 4B gets our gpa 4 wish. lol.






loves to 4B! taken by a BAD photographer. mine is a good camera! i insist.

cam ran out of batt, will post more pics later.


gtg! new year is a time for family.

but say you'll remember, won't you?
L
sumdays i just cant wait till i get outta there.
O
how do you face the people you've let down, and the people who let you down? sorry really doesnt help.. only time will. and im trying. all i can hope for is that you'll say you remember.
V
how do you ease everything dat has been said, just by walking away? it rly aint easy for me. it's not like it's a new starting. it's an ending that led back to the start. & the journey's meant to be forgotten? easier said than done.

E

but everything started cos i thought too much.. sumtimes the smart are the ones who know how to be ignorant. those who know how to forget.
FEEL THE LOVE.
forget it.

this one goes out to my parents with love...

my favourite memories each year never fails to include the chinese new year.. as a child, it's THE event to look forward to all year... the only event my parents go all out to celebrate. christmas, english new year, good friday, overseas trips.. they all din exist in my dictionary.

every year without fail we'd go to chinatown market.. i rmb i'd ride on my dad's shoulders as a toddler, den as a child, all i could see were other people's butts in the crowd... then i'd complain and my daddy will carry me... i rmb clearly at that time, i kept thinking i'll never grow tall enough to see the stalls.

but i did grow up. and as days pass and work swept me away, i found myself thinking that new year seems more like a chore den an enjoyment this year. i just don't have the time n effort to shop for new clothes or new shoes, and i dun see the point. afterall i'll be in uni like, 5days a week..! so i jus bought wadever i like. i din think. i din plan. and it turned out everything i bought was pink, white or black.

my parents are not happy people.. jus cos it was said dat my lucky colour is RED, orange n brown this year. ugly colours!! i thought it ridiculous. i mean, wad's the point of buying a shirt i wun wear, jus cos it's "lucky"? and i got angry at them for being angry at me.

but ytd night i went to chinatown market with my parents, and i realised dat all these nights dat they went chinatown without me, (i was busy), all they've been doing is to keep looking out for shirts.. for me. i was suddenly struck by the fact that it really bothers my parents.. cos i'm supposedly going to have a disastrous year ahead, and they're worried and are trying to do wad they can.

so though i din believe it's gonna make a difference wad colour i wear when the new year begins, i bought a shirt i din really like. i bought a shirt my parents like. and i will wear it.. often. cos when i see my dad in a teenage girl's store frantically trying to find the shirt they liked, when i see my mum queueing up for the fitting room for me, when i see my sister helping me ask for newest designs.. i jus felt so loved. =) my family cares. and that shirt will remind me of that.

i've been bad lately. very very bad. work is but an excuse. i was preoccupied with v'day, with my own world.. that i failed to do my part. i was the one who liked all the pigs new year decorations, who bugged my dad to buy new decorations.. yet my dad was the one who stayed up till 3am to put it up. i was the one who din bother to clear up my room.. yet my mum was the one who spent every afternoon clearing.. i was the one whose wardrobe is exploding, yet my sister was the one who packed all the clothes.

im sorry. =x im looking forward to new year spent with my family! i'll try harder.

which explains why i went to the night market jus now with my parents.. daddy taught me how to choose fresh prawns! and mummy taught me how to choose fresh sotong... i was happy. and thinking i can be a housewife.. when i saw sth that made me tear. it was a fish out of water. struggling for air.. flipping it's fins. and all anyone said was.. "Wow how fresh".

i wanted to cry... here i was, looking at a a living thing struggling at it's last moments, and it's all becos humans like myself wanted it to be food. fresh food. it's disgusting.. can u imagine if human becomes food to aliens one day, and all anyone cared abt was how fresh we are, how nice our meat taste when we get EATEN? the fish was a living thing! it had a life. and we took it away cos we're hungry. and it's not like we HAVE to eat them. we can eat vegetables! (eeeew vegetables)

im so gonna be a vegetarian one day.

=( on a brighter note, let's have a look at my newest pet!!! the... PIGPLANT!

EUNICE ! I enjoyed Valentine's Day. It was the long draggy hours in school, followed by our last netball match, and finally the celebration. Nope, Eunice, I am not going to tell you how i celebrated my Valentine's Day XD and anyway, it was already 1am this morning that you wished me Happy Valentine's Day, you are forever late ! (((:

Today's lessons had to be the most irritating, dry, boring, senseless ever. Never had i felt so lethargic; tired. I don't know why i have this urge to comment on my school everyday, just feel like telling the whole world how tired i was in class for the whole day. Enough about schoolwork, I don't understand why should there be Chemistry Lab tomorrow. If not, I would have happily skipped school. Pfft !

Right now, i have two pending tasks

1. Spring clean the other half of my living room.
2. Redesign the class jacket, i agree what i've done up was ugly too.

Alrights, I am off then (:

Valentine's day'07. :)

HANNIE. u're the only thing missing from my celebration this year! =x BOO.


PREPARATION!

went chinatown with nana~


me n my shopping partner were jus left with a few cents home. =(


helllll loads of sweets!


50 roses!!


meiyun-san & cynthia-san packing sweets. =D im the designer mah! no need do labour de.


nice rite my sweets! =) im such a genius.


end products!

other gifts like..

mr. cutie!





i love this light...


it glows so nicely..




be a happy girlfren, darlings!

it started with a tear. and ended in tears.

Tomorrow's Valentine's Day. Monday's blues made me feel that Valentine's Day is just another day, but today i realised it is a very important day. SHARE THE LOVE <345 and girls, i finally bought your presents. Much thoughts were put into choosing the gifts, appreciate the gifts, appreciate me !

Time really flies, I am now Secondary Four. " You came in with 26+, you leave with single digit. " quoted from Mrs G, who said it in such a relaxing yet pressurizing manner. Well, i don't know what to say, but the staffs seem to have something to hold me on, always. It was student councillor, now it's engaging in a relationship. Anyway, i am supposed to study hard, listen to the teachers and achieve straight A's ? Because it is so easy to score in Singapore, everything is rigid, my mum said.

I only want Wednesday's night, Thursday's afternoon, Friday's afternoon and the Chinese New Year break. Omit the rest. Sounds so demanding, but those will be moments i really enjoy. Apparently, I just don't want school. There's Biology Lab tomorrow, it's difficult to pretend to really enjoy lessons.

Well, these few days have been great, and I remember last week as the most hectic week. Day in day out, I just don’t seem to be sitting still, I would be traveling around, to meet different people. So, MEET ME AT MY DOORSTEP IF YOU WANT TO DATE ME :D

I just cannot wait for Chinese New Year to come, I will be in M'sia of course. The nights with my cousins, star gazing nights, gambling nights, movie marathon, drinking& finger guessing. I am anticipating great fun ! <345>

I don't know why, but this year's Valentine's Day seems to hold no significant to me. I don't know if it will be great..

OH ANYWAY,
I WILL
I MUST
I CAN

SLIM DOWN (((:


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posted by HAN at 5:18 AM 0 Comments

YYYYY

spent yesterday with two of the best gurlfrens on earth.. early in the morn till late into d nite.