actually, i happily skipped school today. Despite knowing the fact that it's my responsibility to attend school, but i am feeling really sick so it can't be helped i guess.

So i spent the day sleeping, then did some genetics and played a little basketball.

This Sartuday is coming, i cannot wait for the date with HAN ! (:
and of course, the countdown to Chinese New Year, all the visits to/from relatives, the radiance on everyone's faces, and the late night with my beloved cousins ! <345


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I slowly see some aspects of my life go haywire, and i just sit back, watching the consequences devour me slowly. And i wonder why i am not going to do anything about it.

2007 barely started, and i see my friend awaiting for 2009. actually, i am waiting for the day where i get my results, where i see my future. so long later; happy waiting !

my mum just said the heels i bought are not suitable for me, it's too mature for me. it's alright actually, since someone likes me being matured ;)

in any case, i am falling sick again, perhaps i will be better. Inside my heart, i just want to be sick again, and skip the draggy lessons. i am totally against the recess to be at 1120hour, although i don't go down to eat, but i don't know, so many lessons straight from 0800hour, and i only get to rest like hours later =/

talking about skipping lessons, i have this feeling that i am behind the class. like i am not studying enough, i didn't pay enough attention to the teachers. but surprisingly, and i don't know, i did well for my tests ! except for the Chinese test which i have no idea what happened to it.


EUNICE ! I CANNOT WAIT FOR VALENTINE'S DAY AND CNY !

it's 1.23 am now. i still have a chinese book review, 2 online tests, a MATHS test and a bio test to study for. i woke up at SIX am this morning.... AND it's a SATURDAY. i lead a sad life. =(

haha. im not functioning very well now, but i've got a lot to say! yes yes i know any soul reading this would so prefer to feast their eyes with pretty pictures, but im so lazy to upload, so all i'll do is to bombard you with words. muaahaha.

i promise pictures tomorrow. =) cos it's the much awaited wedding dinner of my youngest uncle!! i cant wait. pretty gowns. high heels. stockings. make up. hairstyling. yeah. we had the tea ceremony this morning. awwwwwww they look so happpyy. i want to get married. like, now! pls queue up if u wanna marry me!! HAHAHA. im sure there'll be longgg queues.

but im alws left with a fear. if ppl can change so much before and after a relationship, what abt a marriage of a lifetime commitment? how do you ensure that a marriage stays healthy and sweet forever? how can you be so sure who's the one to spend the rest of your life with...? i asked my mum.. but she was like, you've still got another half of ur life to live first! why worry!! you'll know when the right one comes.

i hope so. =)

recently i've been sick.. nothing unusual, since there's a flu going around, and my body has alws been weak to viruses. i hear belinda's sick as well.. do take care, everyone. it sucks to be sick.

isnt it funny how people often neglect their health? like, it's alws been the bottom of ur worries, den suddenly BOOM it becomes the top. i mean, to me, food goes into the mouth and disappears. i dun like to think of the oily stuff ruining my kidneys or heart or wadever. but wad if my kidneys, hearts or intestines goes on strike? wad if one day my body turns against me and i tio cancer? wad if all my hair drop off? NOOOO. but aiyah, i say only. wun so suay de lah. =P now that im well again, im already planning kfc tmr and i still refuse to eat vegetables! hehe. ^^ yesyes i deserve death.

but yea, jus think of all the sick children in the world n rmb how lucky we are... we'll nv fully uds wad they're going through.. =( so instead of saving the 2 dollars for an ice-cream or sth, why not give it up for the sick or needy? im doing flag day soon. get the hint. =D

life has been busy busy busy. believe it or not, i din miss school even tho i was sick... when last year i would have jumped at the chance to miss school.. it jus seems like there's too much to miss. movies. lessons. friends. dance. running. laughing. yes im very happy. and proud to say im making an effort, at the very least.

but there're some days i look at all the people, all the homework, and i jus feel like exclaiming.. is this all dere is to my life?! alws rushing for something. never having time to do whatever i feel like doing. uggh.

talked to a few frens.. and i realise that this is life bah. everyone has a different tale to tell.. everyone has got to learn somehow, somewhere. dere's a time and place for everything.. PIRORITIES IS THE WORD.

everyear on teacher's day, me n my pri sch frens meet up in prmiary school, and we all say how nice it's d be if we just had one day, jus ONE day back at primary school. but come to tink of it, we all hated our lives back then, claiming we couldnt wait to get out of there. do you realise that everyday life now, the life you complain abt.. is sth u'll nv have again? that it'll one day become used-to-bes. never-to-bes. treasure every moment. for every 60 seconds of sadness, u lose a minute of happiness..

only be affected by things that'll stay with you throughout ur life. sumtimes i jus don't know why i cant "just don't care lah".. but then again, like wad my fren says, if i can heck care abt other people's emotions and everything, i wouldnt be ME. x)

i remember the look in your eyes...

will the day that im waiting for come?

I slept in class today.

It ain't supposed to be an amazing thing, since it is so common anywhere else. But today, something in me was prompting me to stay awake. " You are Secondary Four. " I really tried to force my eyes open, but the teacher's voice is so soft and meek, it is like hypnotising me. Not as though i made a pact to myself that i am going to stay awake throughout all lessons or something, but it still doesn't feel right to be sleeping in class.

See, i have the right attitude towards school life now ! Being a student is my responsibility, and i should thus by all means, be a good student ! (:

Oh funny thing is, the sun absorbed my tiredness away as soon as i was having my training.

My life now is really very disorganised; i don't see why am i always rushing around places in a day. I am starting to feel lethargic, my immune system going down too, feeling sick every now and then.

Alrights, i am going to sleep early today (((:

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I was thinking about me running short of time and money, and i realised that there is another scarier situation. Having no money or time, is better than having no friends.

Imagine, you are at the lowest of your life. You came from a broken family with an abusive parent, not a high scorer in school, nor are you well liked by your school mates. You have nobody to turn to, except perhaps those dead soft toys lying around your bed. Everywhere you go, you seem to be too late. And you blame it on yourself that everything happened. You are alone.

Yet, you would be able to face everything with the love from your loved ones ! What an amazing thing love is. I admit that i live on LOVE. i need to be loved and love everyday. Little actions like asking about my day, giving me sweets, they are all enough to brighten up my day.

They say that friends are like torchlights, shining through your deepest times and bringing you out of that abyss.

It's cheesy, but do you dare say it is not true ?

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First, i like you. Then, I LOVE YOU.
SPREAD THE LOVE <345


EUNICE LIM, BLOG !
WE WILL BE GOING OUT SOON. WHEN I AM FREE. LOVE YOU.
XOXO.

heyhey ! good game all today (: at least better than the previous two. keep the engine going ! vroom !




Thanks alot Rachel. And also, apologise for my attitude this evening. the commitment is gone, totally.

Anyway ! i made a total fool of myself at Mac's after the game. Since i have worked before, as a F&B, i know how important is a 'thank you' to the person serving you. Although it's only Mac's, but still, i thanked the person clearing up the table !


Apparently, a staff came over to me. I was so glad, thinking that he was going to appreciate my simple gesture. My wishful thinking ! He wanted me to transfer everything i wrote to a feedback form. O.o

from today's onwards, my writings will be in orange, whereas eunice's will be in that ugly pink >)

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to start things off, i have no idea why i have so many homework due. and the teachers are still using demerit points, and school's results to discipline a student.

personally, it's useless.

yes, you will no longer be a councillor once you hit 3 demerit points. you will be blacklisted. your assignments will be graded, undone assignments would mean failing of that particular subject.

to me, i have lost that interest and passion for Council, and i long regarded myself as non-existent in that family. the number of demerit points still won't restrict me from behaving as ME in school. also, the results in school won't affect my O level results right ;)

out of fun, i played with this machine that will fortune tell my love life or something. it's pretty true to a certain extent. the last line is so true anyway, " the whole world appears so sweet to me. " <345

woo ! and Chinese New Year is coming ! i am so into the festive mood ! all the lovely decorations, new clothes, new shoes, new stuffs, and a NEW ME !

so many things are getting me excited ! Tournaments, New Year, Valentine's Day, " Life After O level ". and i am looking forward to my future !

enjoy life babes ! (:

i shall begin this post with a old but felt every once-in-a-while-phrase...

WHY ISSIT ALWAYS ME...?! IT'S NOT FAIR..

urggggh. i remember this last chinese new year, my uncle came to me and told me that it'll be a very very dark year ahead, cos my sheng1 cheng3 ba1 zi4 supposedly clashes with some god. i flashed him a smile and told him, no prob! i can handle everything. i'll have fun none the less.

i thought he was jus being supersitious, and put it on the back of my mind.. now.. i cant help but believe it. let's see...

this year,
i've sprained my ankles/ankle twice.
i've sprained my thumb once.
i've fallen off a bike and stayed in bed for 2 weeks.
i've cut my leg in the sea.
i've fallen down 5 times, in various places.
i've accidentally burnt a part of my hair.
i've lost my wallets, mp4, n a brand new phone.
i've broke my specs twice.
i've lost a whole bag with everything inside.
i've had more headaches, flus, & sickness den i can rmb.
i've met the worst ppl on earth. & made irreversible mistakes.
and that's just wad happened to me externally.

haha. and i fell off the stairs today..

oh well. it aint serious. just a scraped elbow and bum. =( but it's enough to make me exclaim to heaven, WHY ME?

=x haiis.

THE WORLD ISNT FAIR.

get used to it. i hate being accident-prone. =(

i should be happy i din get hit by a truck, given my luck. any lucky guy wanna kiss me and pass me his luck? =P i can alws put on strawberry lipstick. =)

"filal piety is important, but do you realise that you'll live 20 or 30 years with your parents, but let's say you live to 80, you'll spend the next 50 years with someone else.. so when you take the hand of someone now, don't think of holding it just for the sake of having a companion.. but think whether it's the hand you wanna hold on to for the next 50yrs."...

me: "mummy. what made you chose daddy for the rest of ur life?"
mummy: "he had a nice car."

me: "daddy. why did u choose mummy to be with for the rest of ur life?"
daddy: "i don't know what i was thinking. but i guess she had nice hair."

hmm. so my parent's 25 yrs of happy relationship, 20 yrs of blissful marriage, is actually started due to nice cars n hairs.... *stuns*

forget it.

slick explanations cant deny the fact that someone let you down. consider the circumstances, and decide if dat person is worth your feelings. maybe it's time to let go.

all my life i've loved rainy days.

rainy days are romantic.
rainy days are perfect for dreaming.
rainy days are sleepy days.
rain, to me, is just a gift from heaven to wash away all the dirt.
rain might be heaven's tears for all the unjust in this world.

so, i'd never thought I'd say this.. but....

IM SO FF-ING SICK OF THE RAIN.

rainy days used to be special to me..

but im sick and tired of getting home DRENCHED from head to toe, inside out.
im sick and tired of all my shoes being wet.
im sick and tired of the cold.
im sick and tired of all the clothes that couldnt dry in time.
im sick and tired of letting the rain ruin my plans.
im sick and tired of being trapped in the rain.
im sick and tired of hiding under the covers becos of thunder.
im sick and tired of consoling tears. (yes i blame it on the rain)
im sick and tired the rain playing with my emotions.

rain rain go away.. for you come with sadness.

on a brighter note, im feeling like the luckiest girl on earth.. i lost my wallet on wednesday, at eunos.. i jus dropped it on the streets.. was super duper upset... thanks to classmates who consoled and helped me settle everyting..! =D (i cant believe weifu called 999 for me to report loss of wallet!! LOL) i went back and searched for it. but it was fruitless.

went home depressed. THEN, this guy came to my house and passed me my wallet!!! omg he actually came to my HOUSE. and apologised for being late... =O everything was intact. how lucky could i get?

and you know what's the BEST thing?
HE'S AN Ex-DUNMANIAN!!! oh boy. dunmanians rule.

=) it reminds me of the time i dropped my wallet in korea, and a stranger picked it up and chased me for a few streets to pass me back to me.

all these shows me dat me and hannie is right, dere IS more good in this world.. don't lose hope! and pretty pls, people. do return what you find.. "before keeping a wallet you found, think of how you'll feel if someone keeps your wallet."

kindness pays. i will pass it on.

**i hate the words see you soon. how soon is soon? it doesnt seem soon at all. it seems like a promise, said right after the goodbye... but. do you really want to see me again soon, or is it just meant to be ambiguous? =(

but oh well. i love meeting up with ppl once in a while.. it makes u treasure the time more. =)

phew. today i was looking at my student handbook with every single inch of it filled with doodles... den suddenly i jus had to exclaim.. "OHMYGAWD it's like the THIRD WEEK already?"

time flies.. the tests are already approaching like monsters ready to devour me. soon i'll be engulfed with mountains of work. dere'll be ccas and projects and matches to support and everything. ahhh. & after all these i'll have to slog during the so-called holidays.. den i'll have to fight the exams.

what comes after that? another year. and it'll start all over again. =(

so much to look forward to. *rolls eyes*

but oh well. school aint all the exams. aint all abt the grades. i think if you see it as a way of getting knowledge it'll be different. HAHA. and school's fun! im getting cleverer anyway! and i love my new nickname.. it's called doctor lim. yes indeed, may i be of help? oh you're having a fever? that's cos you're too hot! jus go swimming..

i did not threaten to kill my classmates if they call me stupid eunice. i did not bribe them to call me doctor lim. i did not throw things at them when they make up stupid songs abt a certain "stupid eunice".

work hard. work smart. it's a crucial year. no one can afford to fail.. it feels good to be a goodgirl. yes, i know most ppl out dere thinks this wun last, think it's jus gonna be a few wks before i revert to slacking. a lil sad, but i thank those who remind me to go home study, who calls and checks if im studying. lol. i know you mean well.

i like learning new things. but sumtimes i look around me, and i think.. is this all there is to life? is it all about the marks, abt the grades.. are they everything that'll determine ur success? =/ whatever happened to "character builds destiny.."?

anw, today's a full-moon day.. i eat vegetarian.. but i acty forgot and had spicy chicken pasta today.. oh man. i seldom forget things like this, im jus too busy.. there's nv enough time. for everything i wanna do. live life to the fullest, yes indeed.. but where does fun n happiness end and pirorities and responsibilities start?

today, my mum was like complaining that i nv eat dinner at home anymore.. she said it pouting, which makes it worse. i'd rather she scolds me. i feel so bad. like she spends hrs cooks and it all goes to waste.. =x

family... they nv get forgotten, or forsakened.. only neglected. don't wait till it's too late before you start cherishing kay.. i love being with my frens. be it jus a casual stroll through the streets, or just having a talk somewhere. but what i've forgotten lately is that my parents would love to have my company too.. like sometimes just watching tv with them makes them happy..

daddy works everyday just to pay the bills and put food on the table. mummy spends her time cleaning, washing, cooking.. daddy remembers to make milo for me everynight, to remind me abt pocket money, to take all the fishbones out before giving me fish. mummy remembers to wake me up every morning, to cook healthy yet unfattening food, to buy wadever i need.

i din remember anyting. =( the least i could do is to spend more time with them.

im sry. =( unconditional love... it can spoil.

it's amazing how a phone call can brighten up a day. =)

These few days were hectic; leaving only Friday night for me to rest. which is now, duh. Kamhei and Shirleen's brithdays greeted us this week, and i bet everyone of us spent a bomb on just their birthdays. Both memorable days, to make them have really sweet sixteenth birthdays !


had our first match, against Tampines Secondary. I would say the results ain't satisfactory, but nevertheless, nevertheless what ! {i don't know what to say} complacency kills !

eunice here!

it's 1am now. and im seriously considering putting toothpicks in my eyes to keep my eyes open. yes, im that tired..

finally a little time to blog after so long, i alws feel like it's a race against time in everything i do nowadays. it feels like i've gotta chiong for everything.. to get onto to the school bus, to get homework done, to make it in time for the bell, to meet someone on time.

yes, the old me would have just heck care. but i've decided NOT to be late for anything this year.

hehehs. school has been hell loads of fun.. but no, it's not heaven loads of fun. all the work is making me so fucked up. yes i used the F word. it's getting on my nerves. im determined not to lag behind though. believe me, school is a torture when you have no idea what's going on, and all you're doing in every class is counting down the minutes to the next class.

when you know what you're doing though, time passes pretty fast. and, *gaspgasp* i like working hard. =D i love how each subject has so much knowledge to offer me. (yes you should clap for me)

someone told me that i'll never succeed, cos i alws have so much determination and spirit to study at first, but it all thins out after two week. too true. im learning though, that it's not how much work you started out with, but how much work you can keep doing.
consistency is the word.
slacking is against the laws this year.

=) i've had a very very fun week though. (hey it's only the first week wadddd let me play)..

to sum it all up:
shopping at vivo was crazy.
deathnote2 the fourth time was still good.
even bugis is fun when you've got fun company.
KFC, pasta, macs, long john's are all good for health!
for the record, i've ate 6plates of pasta this week.
i love a friend who'll go with me to the library. YES I READ.
Mahjong is the best game on earth!!
but girlchats are the best, no comparison.
your phone calls/smses makes me smile.
singing in class brightens the days.
yes, even all the normal staying back after school to "study" will go into a treasured memory box of mine.

of course, it isnt all perfect.. dere're still some days i feel blue.. some i-wishes dat'll nv come true. some days i feel like crying. some days i feel like running away.

but overall, im still glad im me.. =)

it upsets me a little when i found out some things.. i know my outlook is practically screaming PINK!! all over. i know i have over-excess pink things. but so? no one thinks badly of a girl who like blue, green, white, black, or even like, brown. so why does everyone discriminate pink girls as bimbotic, aa freaks?

argh. it pisses me off. wadever man.

hannie! im so sorry i din turn up for netball farewell. it's so far.. *groans* hope to see ya soon.. =( all of you.. i can finally honestly say im doing great! and i hope you are too. x)

wun be blogging as much, school work and all. maybe i'll put in a poem or a picture or some thoughts when i have something to share. used to think that blogs let others know how im doing, but i now know that i'll be doing fine, always. =)

i am just so awake that i have to blog to while my time away. no one in their right mind would spend hours trying to sleep. oh wells, i did that actually. i tried exercising to make my body tired, i kept panting in the end, but i couldn't sleep. i tried reading tons of chinese essays to sleep, in the end, my eyes are tired, my mind ain't. i tried talking to myself, talking to my soft toys, applying lotion to sleep, but none of them worked =/ must be wondering, why didn't i count the sheep ? because, that's an out dated way of attempting sleep, which youngsters like us, alright basically me, don't believe in anymore !

after putting down the phone at midnight, perhaps i had one or two nap, but believe me, it's only for a few minutes, throughout the night, i listened to my stomach grumble, my heart beat faster or slower.

the night was just so quiet and, a little eerie. anyway, on a lighter note, im all dressed, just waiting to go to school ! (((:

ain't i glad to be back to school ? i won't be bored, definitely ! i just reckon that i will have enough energy to last throughout the day later on, despite this lack of sleep.

actually, come to think of it, i slept like two days away when i was sick ! my body just doesn't want to adjust itself to a more hardworking environment { sleep less, work more } =/

anyway, i have no idea how am i going to pass through chinese lessons later on. basically, i have yet to finish the homework that is due. because in me, i never believe in writing so many essays, it makes my hands work, but definitely not my brains. alright, enough of excuses. i just don't wish to do it. a new teacher, how is she going to punish me, i don't know. but still, i'll have to build up a good relationship with her, because she's the one aiding me till after O's !

and to digress, my hamsters are attempting to escape, by trying to bite the cage down, because they have no food.. =/

doctor lim, asking me out would make me recover (((:
and my friend says, " one won't die of dengue silly ! "
how true is it doctor ?


anyway, i'm feeling hell loads better. i can eat two buns in a meal, like today's breakfast !


my bill is coming, so whoever that agreed to lend me money had better do so. but actually, i think 50bucks is enough to pay off my bill for a month, so for the next month, i just don't exceed, everything will be fine..

for those who know, the quarrel with my dad is still going on. actually, it's single-sided. he is speaking a little to me, but my answers remain short. i am stubborn, towards someone who ain't tactful with his words.

was thinking, perhaps it's time that i start talking to him again. he's the one bringing meals in on every meal, the main provider, the man of this family. instead of making things difficult for him, i should be an understanding daughter ?

everyone has their fair share of joy, happiness, and enjoyment. and everyone deserves just another second chance. but i always believe that my chances wouldn't expire, i took everyone, everything for granted. perhaps, i should make a change now.
just perhaps..

yesterday was pretty horrible. all through the night, i felt like vomiting and my stomach keep having on and off contractions. i don't know how to describe the feeling, but it's just horrendous ! still, i dragged myself to school. still felt like shit, no appetite and all, then i thought i was having a fever.

i confirmed that i was having a fever, when i took 15 minutes to understand a simple mathematics question, at one point of time i actually thought i was dumb =/


around evening, i felt joints pain, i had headache, i just felt like sleeping, i was damn tired. and i waited for 2 hours at the clinic before the doctor called me in.

with a high fever of 39.07, the doctor said it might just be dengue fever if the fever doesn't subside till the sixth day. i am really scared, what if i got dengue. damn, i might just die like this. i would lose all the important people in my life. i would become ash, become nothing. i might even be forgotten.


alrights, enough of scaring myself, i will be just fine yea ! (((:


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look at the similarity between shir and the book !

over the years, i've realised that words can hurt more than sticks and stones.

simple words can mean everything.
simple words can change everything.
sumtimes a whole misunderstanding is sparked off becos of words.
sumtimes words can cause powerful emotions.

i love english. love how the twenty-six letters can form themselves to express almost anything, everything. i love to talk. i love hearing others talk. i love how words with the right ppl can make everything right again.

thankYOUs. =)

but, there comes a time where words aint enough. when action speaks louder than words. it's time to start being serious. it's time to start work. it's time to stop talking, and start moving. i rly appreciate the talks with everyone abt my problems. i believe all those talks will go into a treasured memory box of mine. but then, talks alone aint gonna chase my problems away.

i know what i have to do, now all that's left is to just do it. i'll stay focused, i'll work hard.

for once in my life, i dnwanna hear it. so don't say it. pls.

first day of school was alright, x'plore was fun! okay so my grp prettaye much slacked.. but i like going to visit places, all the running around, taking photos, eating with at the riverside.. all the crapping and walking and talking.

hannie let's do it!! i believe in you.. jiayou jiayou for ur o'lvls!! i'll try not to fail you too! i wun fail.

x) loves from eunice.

stay happy. why? becos you can.
you don't need a reason why.
for every sixty seconds of sadness, you lose a min of happiness!!

for this year academic-wise, i am totally unprepared. unlike the past, where i had all the formulas, theory at my finger tips. this time wise, i had to keep flipping the book for important notes.

actually, i am a little scared. i was never unprepared, i was never aimless.


i had always been working towards a goal since young. PSLE t-score to be above 245, getting into a SAP school, getting into thriple science class. all these, it seems like i never failed to get what i want.

this year, l1r5 below 10i have no idea how realistic it is, but still it's another aim i set for myself (((: wish me good luck mates !


pink ! ask me out to bugis. i won't be free this weekend, ask me out sfter that yeah !