i'm in the heck-this-blog kinda mood again. lol. i think every blogger goes through this phase.. the i-want-to-delete-my-blog-and-every-stupid-word-i've-ever-written phase. but i shall not!


=/ i shld blog abt my hongkong trip. spam my 1000 pictures. (mind you i have around 100 shots of pandas. 100 shots of the disney christmas parade & 100 of the ocean park fishy things... all thanks to my super enthu daddy -.- ) yes i should. but not now.

becos now. i dnknw why. but the air around me feels different. it feels like i need to make an effort to keep myself breathing. becos im so darn worried. i havent been sleeping well. havent been eating well. i wanted to gain at least 4kg in hongkong. but i came back to sing to find out i've lost another.

funny how my mum thinks the way to get me to eat more is to pile up a huge mountain of rice in my bowl. it just makes me feel like vomitting. WHO EATS A MOUNTAIN? ppl eat nice little piles of rice, mum. not mountains.

rah whatever.


so this is how it feels like. not knowing what to feel.

*if your heart is in your dream.. no request is too extreme..*
i hope so.