i used to like this line alot.. "life can be summed up in three words. it goes on."

but now. i just don't know if it's true. i don't know if it can go on. correction, if i can go on..

oh ye of little faith.

day after day i've prayed, with no proof anyone could hear. prayed with every single ounce of faith i have left in me. prayed for the miracle that never happened. prayed that there'll be a reason why things happen. faith; faith is believing without seeing.. but may i ask, what's there to believe, when there's nothing to hope?

i dont know what im talking abt exactly. except that things havent been going well at all these few days. to the problems without solutions, questions without answers... what's left to be done? i nvr realised that the hardest thing in life is accepting the things that you cannot change.

i cant seem to stop reading these days, from spine-chilling thrillers to *LaughOutLoud* screwed-up-life comedies to *sobsob* normal-average-melodrama-complicated-love-stories... =) i really salute every writer in the world... i love the way i can know someone else's story, even if it's just fiction. & there's the serial dramas too! people keep telling me i shld read non-fiction instead. but i cant help choosing fantasy over reality.. there were the movies too. i tink im crazy 4 movies in 1.5wks. hero. stardust. gameplan. & enchanted!! =) it's hard to believe there ARE happily-ever-afters now but it is nice fantasizing isnt it. lol.

but most of all it's just been work & more work. i'm finally taking a break tmr though. going to camp =) with jing&lyon.. rly hope there'll be time to chat. and also guitar concert with yun l8! then it'll be hongkonggg!! =D

ciao.

i find it amazing that it's been 4yrs & you've never seen me cry. & i tink in these 4yrs i've cried more than my whole first 12yrs of life. you've accompanied me through the saddest days in my life & yet you've never let me cry. alws using your own crazy means to tell me somehow it'll be fine. & it alws is. i wish i could believe you one more time that it'll be fine. darling, i wish i could too.