life is.. one big sigh. it rhymes huh.

havent blogged here for a long time. becos whenever i think of my life now i only know wad NOT to think of, and then i'd be thinking abt it and so in the end, i simply gave up thinking. hahaha.

yea i knw i shouldnt be complaining much, not when many of my darlings are probably losing most of their hair stressing over dee why dee axe and busy eating their ten yr series.. but mainly, i'm just.. one big emo queen lately.

roar. emo over grades. i feel like a big fat failure. & there're so many choices. choices that feels like cross junctions. it's like we're all standing there waiting for the greenlight for us to go our separate ways. everyone's waving and ready to go. me, i'm ready to go. but i have no idea which way to turn, which path to take...

i used to say "i'll do wad it takes till i touch the sky".. but now, i dnwanna reach out for the sky anymore. i want to reach out for something realistic, and for once, grab it. i dnwan daydreams, dnwan disappointments.. yet what is a person without dreams...?

on another hand, things are going fine at work. Omygod i hit my commission target of 10k.. in fact, i hit 12k.. i nv would have thought i could. $12000! & oct is still not over yet. alright so i'll jus get 1%.. but i still feel a sense of accomplishment & i like sales a lot. it's been great.

i'm so screwd. & you. you painted me such a rosy picture. a picture i believed wouldnt fade. and then, you just keep walking in&out of the picture... i really feel like framing the picture so you'd stay in. or out. hahah. sometimes i wonder how it is that two people from different worlds can ever see the same sky. and then you say, the sky is the same... for everyone. i don't understand.

one good thing though, cyn&woon are finally back!! cynthia's still busy with her suicidal fren 1&2, as well as her depression frens (btw i'm classified under mild depression so you knw how serious it is)... but still we managed to get tgt for mahjong sessions. lol.



& there're alws pluses in my life. =D hehe.

DEAD OR WHAT!
EUNICE WAKE UP!
YOU DIDN'T BLOG FOR AGES.

HAS THE WORKING SOCIETY ABSORBED YOU FROM HAPPYJIUHAO?

Anyway, i will join you soon i guess. haha. so sad, my mum is chasing me to work, by giving me no allowance after o's.

nevermid, i earn more than my allowance. I THINK.

hehe
my mum says that it;s not ambitious to work as promoter.
but hey hey hey, i only have PSLE cert, which is not very useful.

HMPHS, i will only take that job if i have nothing else right!

RAHH!

BYEDIE !

EUNICE ASK ME OUT OKAY ( :

sometimes in life, you just never know. everything can be alright now, and then in the next second, everything's wrong...

just like today, my whole family is laughing over a joke when suddenly my mom said, OMYGOD I FORGOT TO SWITCH OFF THE KITCHEN FIRE THIS MORNING.... and BHAMMM! just like that, the joke lay forgotten, everything seemed unimportant and we just chionged home.

the trip home from bugis seemed to take ten hrs rather ten minutes, with us not knowing wad to expect.. dreading the scene we'll soon face. me, i was more worried abt happy than uhh, the kitchen? thank god the fire wasnt big.. if it had reached the oil near it the whole kitchen would have exploded bah. there was a gas leakage, but happy was fine. phew.

still- safety is often last thing on our mind, or at least.. on my mind. i shudder to imagine what would have happened if a fire had claimed my entire house. (ohmygod if squishie went up in flames i dnwan to live either)... we shld be more careful. i dn blame my mum, i knw it could have just as easily be me... safety precautions, safety rules, whatever it is. it's important.

& i dnknw if you believe me, but i believe my mum. she remembered abt the fire in waterloo temple. and she said that she just had a suddenly image of the kettle burning... is it heaven's help? or is it just her memory? i dnknw. most ppl i knw now are freethinkers, but i alws believed that there's someone/someones above us.. knowing, helping, judging, guiding.

=) this leads me to a question i've alws alws thought about.. what happens when we die? do we just shut down, our memories trapped inside those brain cells that'll just die? or do we float away.. to heaven.. or to hell..? i dnknw. but i'd die to find out. HAHA.

rahhh. anw, life's no longer a bitch but a beach. =D gotten back my results; Amaths and LA were reallllyyyy disappointing but other than that i've given myself a pleasant surprise bah. i'm no longer placing my hopes on you-know-what.. instead i just wish things will remain like it is now... i just wish you wouldnt leave. i dnknw why. i think it's cos it's too big a question mark, and all the minus signs are really quite turning me off.





yoyo TANYEEHAN. welcome to the sixteen gang. HAPPY HAPPY B'DAY hon. :) i'm about to declare you missing and i'm seriously wondering whether i've imagined you existed. hint hint. hahahaha. oh well, you're still fifteen as i'm typing this now so i can bully you bah. YOU SUCKS WOMAN I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I'M DYING TO TALK TO YOU.. bleah. but okay i shall be a nice, understanding friend & since you're busy O-ing.. (u btr dn be dating!) so i shall give you my best wishes as a b'day present. (*imagines yeehan's glare*).. =P point is, i love you woman! take care of yourself. and i knw you'll do great with your O's.. just endure a while longer bah. once again, happy sweet sixteen. rock on.
*note to self: shall stop mentioning my happiness & tempting yeehan to go out*

BUT.. ONE LAST TIME I SHALL HAOLIAN TO YEEHAN HOW HAPPY I AM. if not when she comes back with her great O lvl results & all the fun i'll regret not choosing O's again. :(

i'm loving every single moment of it.
loving the feeling of going to school and knowing you'll enjoy the day with your classmates.
loving the feeling of attending classes without stress.
loving the feeling of looking forward to activities after school.
loving meeting up, catching up, chats without hesitation, walking and SHOPPING.
loving serial dramas, loving the fantasies and the daydreams.
loving the phonecalls and the missed calls greeting me when i wake.
loving work, loving keeping busy.
loving pasta, kfc, pizzahut, jack's place.

& just for memory's sake..
loved going ikea with meiyun =) love our chats, love you woman.
loved meeting up with wen once in a PINK moon when we're not pathetic salesgirl.
& cycling the whole of east coast park with d girls was quite an experience too. jinghuan scared the crap out of me. hahaha.
first time pool-ing with chunying, keith & ivan was O.O?? OH-I-HIT-THE-BALL-WOW- ing.
and i simply love teaching chemistry.. =P it's called the noob teaching the noobier.
resident's evil was heart-stopping.. & it aint just the show.
daddy's mommy's wedding anniversary dinner was sth new again.. we ate steamboat from 10pm-3am.
loved going to the arcade & being lousier than the kids.
love taking public transport. =P
... and at the end of it all, all i'm loving is the simplicity.


this simple connection between you & i. i dnwan it to change, ever.


loving the fact that there's so many things to look forward to.

many things happen in life, but at the end of the day, let us all look back and remember the good things and say: "we're happy". HAPPYJIUHAO.

PRESENTING THE NEW HOPE FOR THE WORLD.....

DOCTOR EUNICE LIM!!


here researching for her new cure for... rabbit hiccup.
(that's the most serious disease i can think of off-hand luh)


she even splits herself into two so she can double her research speed!

what happens if one day we close our eyes and we forgot who we once were?

I think i will be so insecure because a whole part of me is forgotten, thrown to the back of my brain. Always, we would learn from our mistakes, from who we once were. And as frequently, we repeat the same mistakes, only to regret and whine all over again.

Maybe not we, but that's for me.

I never seem to learn from lessons taught. Stubborn and arrogant, maybe.

I don't understand why i allow my tears to drop for the same old reason, and my smile to broaden for a small little thing. I'm so easily contented, at the same time so sensitive and prone to being hurt by miscellaneous affairs.

Sometimes i envy the person following me since first cry. I used to admire her and yearn to be like her, again. yet more than often now, i look down on her. My present is adding on to my past, and my past is hindering my future.

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STOP WISHING ME ' HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY'
haha! that made my day though, but it's weird la...