you dnknw how badly you piss me off when you say "you and i are different. you, you want to be a doctor.. and me, i just want to be myself."

so what, you think i don't want to be myself? you think i like to study.. that i don't like to have fun? you think it's so easy, don't you. you think that just becos i want to be a doctor.. i'll surely be one. do you know that i'm considered stupid in my world, that people laugh at me and tell me that it's impossible i'll be a doctor? don't you know that i too, have to work like siao if i really want to be a doctor?

there's no difference between you and me. at least, not the way you think it. and you really reallyyy piss me off whenever you "resign to fate". if you're willing to work hard, there's nothing you can't achieve. i believe in you, but who can help you if you're not willing to work, if you're not willing to give yourself a chance..

if you worked hard, i wouldnt even blink if you tell me you've got 10 A1s for your O's. but all you care about is dota, all you want to do is to complain about fate.. what do you expect? you know you deserve to fail.

i don't know. maybe if you talked to me a year ago, i'd have found the whole idea of getting 8/100 and all is mcq very funny. but now.. i jus don't know.

i know you don't understand. but the distance between us aint caused by these marks. it's caused by the difference in character. maybe i've changed.. or maybe.. you're the one that needs to change.

maybe after reading this.. you'll understand. maybe you'll never bother to read this. maybe you and i will let this distance grow and stop keeping in contact. maybe we'll talk about this. or maybe we'll keep avoiding this.

all i know is that i'm tired. tired of the silence i'll give whenever we touch on this subject. tired of the words that could not find their way out of my throat.

and these are the words i could not say.