i cannot remember ever being so freaking stressed up in my entire life. and over the silliest things too.

Got so stressed over the twenty mark chem test.. electrolysis and energy changes. somehow the more i study, the more unsure i get. i ended up thinking so much that people think im crazy. so funny, everyone will study and be confident.. den i'll ask some questions and everyone will stun and.. "omg i dnknw." Lol. faith and yun refused to talk to me before the test. :( In the end the test was quite okay lor. but i was in such a frenzy dat i totally din knw wad i was doing.. i din do myself justice. i tink will fail lor!! that's the problem with chem. it's no use if you knw, you must knw how to answer. grrr...

and i cant believe right now im stressed over the history project. which i normally wun give a damn. it's like, every mark, every assignment, every test, plays a part in securing your grade. which plays a part in your gpa. every little thing matters. i cannot afford to fail, not right now.

i cannot afford to make mistakes. Once mrs ong wrote on my test paper "don't be afraid to make mistakes, cos only via mistakes will you learn." i think that is sooo true. but. it doesnt work this way. One mistake might cost me.

argghhh. im driving myself crazy. got so stressed up my head hurts. it's pounding.

it's not just work. everything jus seems to be going wrong right now. im so stressed im losing my appetite. and then my mum gets upset cos she spent the whole day cooking and my heart jus aint in eating. then i get stressed to eat. do you knw how it feels when you look at a mountain of rice and you jus wanna puke? but you still have to eat.. oh god.

im stressed to sleep. i cant sleep. yet my dad will wait for me to sleep before he goes to sleep. no matter how late it gets. he doesnt say a word, jus wait. but it makes me even more stressed to finish my work and go sleep so he can too. last night it got so bad i tossed and turned for hours. in the end i asked my sister to sing me lullabys. LOL. =) it worked.

im stressed for time. i simply have no time. i'd love to relax. to pick up calls and talk freely. but i cant. i just cant. i cant put down the things i have to do. i'd love to accompany my sister watch tv. i knw she's upset that i dont anymore. i'd love to accompany frens to shop.

i'm stressed over relationships. i want to spend the time to set things right. but it seems so hard. i hate having to pretend it's fine when it's not. i hate hiding things. i've never kept a secret from you before, and i dont intend to. but at the same time it's all so complicated dat i jus wanna push it all away. i knw that if this continues.. the distance will grow and grow. eventually we'll get used to the distance. and i dnwan it to happen.

aRrrrgggggggHhhHhH. what would i do without my girlfriends... it all seems better with them though.

talked to one of my favourite girlfrens tday. really, i cannot ever imagine talking to a guy the way i talk to my girlfrens. :D girlfrens just.. understand. i love how the sky just magically turned dark and yet time doesnt seem enough.. how talking doesnt change anything but somehow helps.

yes m'dear you're right. when there's a special bond btw two people, it's just so special. it's wierd how things just "feel right" when you're with some people. how is it that just the two of you is enough, how is it that you dun have any connection with the rest of the other person's world yet you still can connect to that person...

that's why i've alws prefered one best fren to a group of close frens. it's nice when you're in a group, there're more laughter and fun. but you can have fun and laughter with anyone.. yet the special connection only with some. all my frens are SOO different. yet i knw and uds them all. & they rly do knw ME. =) loves.

and i cant imagine life wivout wen. =D we'll work for it tgt yeah? today i was like telling myself "must sms wen goodluck before test. must sms wen goodluck before test." the test is supposed to be "challenging" you see... but darn the period before her test chi tchr is like hovering at my desk. so when i finally took out my phone... i received a sms from wen saying goodluck! hahaha telepathy! cool eh?

hmmmm oh yea i rly rly must say that ms low rawks. tday during maths i was like studying chem.. so she went "hello ms. eunice?" then i said i aint in the mood for maths, will study tmr! and she was like.. hmm okay la but must study tmr kay.. Lol. ms. low can be quite naggy at times but you've got to give it to her.. she is an understanding teacher. :)