yes. guess wad? i lost my phone. and yes. i knw wad you're gonnna say. "again?!?" yes. again. bloody hell.

and wad sucks is that i have no idea how or why or wad or when... my smses and missed calls have been directed to my new card, which means the phone hasnt even been on-ed yet. for all i knw it could be lying on the road in some corner unfound.

oh god. this really sucks. and the fact that i've lost my parent's trust in me hurts more than losing the phone. oh yeaa and losing all my contacts and smses isnt making my day as well. though it aint the first time.

daddy mummy has been cool though. after going through the when-what-how thing and the search-the-house-again-and-again-carefully and the why-are-you-so-careless-thing.. (it's like a routine)... later that night they passed me a new phone. plus a new sim card inside. loves!!

i wish i werent so careless. werent so clumsy. werent so stupid. i really have no idea what happened. cant remember a thing. argh.

and besides this there was the usual almost-get-knocked-down-by-car, spill-drinks-in-class, found-the-perfect-clothes-but-no-size crap that always happens to me.

.. not to mention the nervous breakdown i had in class before bio viva(oral). i kept telling myself not to do it to myself. but i cldnt. =( it was so stupid. all becos i was 100% sure i will fail without my coffee... which spilt. really, i believe coffee makes me think faster.

not just me, bad things have been happening to others around me...

haha cynthia and meiyun are utterly convinced they have a black cloud hovering over them which rains on them and gives them lightning bolts from time to time. -_- well i've been trying to blow their clouds away (literally) it doesnt help to have two depressed girls sighing behind me everyday. lol!

my hse tissues is getting used up at an unbelievably fast rate by the women in my hse.. for different reasons though. mummy is sick with a flu.. =x i've been spilling drinks like almost everyday. and.. sis has been crying her eyes out... sigh. her bf in Australia wun be able to come back to Singapore for her 21st bday.

i dnknw. i like the boyfriend alot. :D he buys me chocolates. but.. i rly dnknw where this will lead to for her. if i were to be selfish i dnlike my sister going over for weeks at a time. and... i dnlike the possibility of her living in another country.

wad would i do without my sister's cheer up gifts when misfortunes happen to me? :)

and.. recently one of my frens lost a parent. =x it's like, one of the worst things that can happen to us.. one that none of us like to even think about. to me.. i knw that everyone eventually will die.. but.. it's just.. aint supposed to happen to parents. grandparents, maybe.. but not parents. parents are supposed to be.. DERE. cos they're alws there. when i try to imagine losing my parents, i cant. like omfg NO... i think this line is very true.. "family wont be forgotten... just neglected" people, cherish your parents kae.

and to my blurqueen who has remained strong throughout it all, thankyou for teaching me a lesson. i thought, if i were to lose my parents i'll just DIE. but no. life doesnt work that way... death is inevitable.. and the living must learn how to live on well. i knw you'll nv read this cos you never read blogs.. but i jus wanna say that we'll alws be here. anytime you need us. :)

sigh. im late for work. been working at this road show to promote membership. it's for youth.. hehs. kinda fun. tiring though! and i'm getting more and more used to approaching strangers on the road... for LA film interviews, for selling bread.. and for promoting now.

take it from eu. "and it's from these misfortunes that you'll learn. and knw who're those who'll stick with you just for the taxi ride, and who are those who'll walk with you when you're down."

somedays it really feels like im clinging on to the world.. and like i may slip off anytime.

i really need a break. to be on top of those clouds again.