Tuesday, July 31, 2007
i stand wrecked and jealous for this. how's my life? well my life is..
chem.bio.maths.history.
periodic table & bonding.genetics.
Integration.differentiation.ln & trigo.
ww1, treaty of versailles, ww2, hitler, japan.
again and again and again.
stop telling us exams are just 20+ days away alright. it's not that we dun care, but how on earth are we supposed to find time for revision with all that we're expected to do? it's just a mad rush. and im beggining to feel that even if i dun eat, sleep, and can teleport, i also wun have enough time to study.
roar. many people just want this whole thing over and done with. but i just want it all to go slower. want to have more time learning. more time studying with friends. but i guess exams wun wait for me. =x
dream or illusion? we'll find out.
life's good though. i've seldom laughed so much. =) and it's those times that matter the most, when i struggle to say what i feel, knowing you'll understand, and even if you dont.. it doesnt matter cos you heard. yes im chim! peichim. -.-
anw, it's been quite some time since i dislike someone so much. just feel like reaching out and strangling her. or taking an eraser and rubbing away her existence.
yesterday i asked my mummy, "is it a bad thing to kan4 bu4 shuang3 someone?" because i often do, and i find that hatred can blind you.. afterall, you see what you want to see. & i found what my mummy said very true. "it's only natural luh. but if you wanna judge, den prepared to be judged. the only other option is to be someone who has no opinions; someone who alws go along with the crowd. only someone without personality wont be disliked."
yeah. if the me last year were judged as harshly and crudely as i am now, i dont think i'll take it lying down.. to be discredited so openly and bluntly by someone who doesnt even know me.. sucks. but now i see that while i cant say you cant judge me, you cant stop me from judging you too. and to me, you're just an irritatingly annoying uhh.. ____ thing? yes my vocab is limited. you can fill in the blank yourself luh huh. *hints: starting with B will be good.*
girl, stop it alright. why dont you reflect upon yourself for once? the ratio of people who dislike you to the people who likes you... i wldnt knw, but i have a pretty good guess. and so does everyone i think.
and a short summary for my very long analysis? "i'm growing up..!" *jumps for joy*
ok it's back to life as a muggle mugging. oh no harry potter pangs.
imissyou.
what happens when everything you held on to suddenly feels like nothing?
