jinghuan: are you sure you want a rabbit? they stink!

me: but they're so cute...! and it's like sth you can tell your grandchildren abt.. like, grandmummy here one owned a rabbit!!

jinghuan: hmm. maybe your children will be like meiyun liddat, den they'll like fishes and not furry things.

me: ... so i should get a boring fish instead?
jinghuan: a lobster will be better! better investment....

hello. is it me, or has it become normalcy to cook your pet nowadays? horror! lol! my mummy who grew up in a farm told me abt how her brothers will each grow a chicken, den when it's time to cook the chickens dey'll have a competition and see which chicken can move the longest with it's head cut off.. AIYO.

dnknw if it's considered naivety, but i really think animals, flies, and plants have souls too. alright maybe soft-toys are a little too far fetched, but i swear squishie looks so sad when i leave it at home.. =( people, must love animals & soft toys kae! i dntink soft toys will want revenge if you treat it badly, but it wouldnt hurt to have a bit more love in the world.. and i've never owned a living ting so i wldnt knw, but i rly wanna knw the feeling of caring for sth.

do you believe in karma? in fate? in life after death? i rmb once i asked cherry wad she wld feel if she knew she gonna die tmr, she says she'll be happy... cos she can finally meet god. and life only starts for her after death.. hmm. i dnknw. i believe there are a reason for all tings unexplained in this world. i believe there is life after death. but i dnknw if i can live waiting for that life. i jus wanna live when im alive. i wanna experience everyting there is to experience in this world.. =)

oh btw, i asked weifu too wad he'll do if he'll die tmr, and he says he'll just screw any girl he finds on the road. LOL. girls, pray hard he nv finds out if he'll die tmr. and me, i better start praying he nv reads my blog. =P

which i knw he wldnt anyway, he says my blog is boring.. screw you. woon only likes reading blogs where people scold eachother. Lol.. hm talking abt blogging. i wish everyone blogs. i wish i can force everyone to blog! hee. i would love to find out how some people think, or how their lives are like. some people blogs are full of photos, putting their lives on display. some are narrative, telling stories of their life. some blog for themselves, saying things u wldnt uds. some follow their thoughts, these are the ones i like best.

i dnknw. reading around, i tend to read most of people's passion... often for their cca. it's become such a big part of their life, once you think of this person you'd link him/her to his/her cca immediately.. a part of me feels amused. a part of me feels appalled. passionate is the word no one will ever associate with me, and i wonder why.

someone once told me angrily, god gave you talent to run, but forgot to give you the heart to pursue. i dn mean to sound boastful, but there were many tings that came easily to me since young. running.. ball games.. music.. i enjoy them all. but i've never bothered to commit myself to anything. what for? i've been in more CCA den anyone i tink. computer club, library club, netball, softball, soccer, brass band, brownies, drama, dance, track. i've taken up ballet, piano, and swimming more times than i can remember.

but i've never been the best in anything.. why? becos im lazy. why shld i train? maybe it's ppl's influence, but i knw it wldnt take me far. so wad if im the best? can being the best in say, track, guarantee me success in future? no. can being better in dance or wadevr buy me a career? no. and the practical part of me asks myself why shld i train when i can be slacking away... cos even if i become a champion, even if i become the best... so? champions will only be replaced by next year's champions.

but i was wrong. i can see clearly now that i am. it doesnt mean nothing, it means everything in the world... becos being a champion? it aint abt being the best. it's abt the blood, toil, tears and everyting you went through, that becomes a part of you, making you a better person. that's why i've never been a champion. I alws chose the easier option.

aim for the moon and even if you fail you'll land in the stars..

i'll alws be far from the best. but i'm determined to alws be the one trying to be the best. it's tiring, of course it is... people alws say it's okay. you've tried your best. to me, that's the worst possible line. i've tried my best and this is it? no... it's never my best.

best. this four little word doesnt mean giving everyting you have. it means reaching and reaching for the sky. the sky's the limit. and even if i dn meet it, i can keep jumping and jumping and growing in the process... making me a better person..

=) cheem rite? yay i rock. talk cock me rock!

no matter wad. TRY. you might fail if you try. but if you dun try, you'll DEFINITELY fail.

to be a champion you need to believe you're the best, even if you arent, pretend you are...

cow: I AM A CHAMPION!

dolphin: eee.. fake one.

LOL.

i hate bleeding days. guys dnknw how lucky they are. i hate complaining abt it. i already anticipated the pains i alws have... yet when they come, no amt of preparation can deal you with it... it's the same every month, but somehow everytime i dn rmb it being so pain. guess you jus cant rmb pain. you rmb you felt pain. but you cant remember the pain the way it was, isnt it?

hannieee.. html's very bad for health indeed. and i just knew u'll sacrifice for me n get it done rite? good. =) loves. next time i come i'll see a comments section.. go hannie go!