"if you're good, you're good. if you're bad, you're bad. That's all there is to it. You cant change the way you're made. And even if you could, it wouldnt be down to you. It's your genes. It's all in your genes, your DNA. Asking someone to change is like asking a rock to change color -it cant be done. Simple as that. You dont clame a rock for being rock-coloured, do you? You don't say - come on rock, you can do better than that, you can be bright blue if you try. No, you are what you are and there's nothing you can do about it."
but you know what? i was wrong.
all my life, i've admired independent woman. woman who're cofident, smart, capable and strong. i wanted so badly to be one of those kick-ass heroines dat alws ends up up saving the day... i thought that if i tried hard enough, i can be eunice the smart. eunice the brave. eunice the cool. yea right.. im more like the girl who alws screws up and needs someone to rescue her. those irritating idiots u see on tv.. =_= sigh.
cos im lost btw who i want to be, and who i really am.. dere're days i love myself. and days i hate myself.
but u knw wad? it doesnt matter. i cant, shouldnt, and wouldnt change myself.. not for anyting in the whole wide world. =) i am who i am. & i feel accepted and loved.
so maybe im the typical girl u alws see. vulnerable. clueless. ordinary. maybe im destined to play the sidekick in every story. the girl who is just another drop in the ocean. a radish in a bunch of roses. but you know what. im happy. i really am.
just being able to make you smile can make me happy.. i wished im leading a more exciting chapter of my life, but at the same time, it's these simplest times dat makes me the happiest. =D
why.. if i were to step out and look at myself, i might not even like myself.. but i love being me. i love everyone around me. and i hope they love me too!
pinkness makes me smile.
cant help being pink. =D
even my tortise is pink. (on d left is cynthia's zhaocaijingbao) LOL. mine is wayy cuter can.
i knw it'll be forever. cant help being a..
HU MEIYUN says: like i care if ur a bimbo or not lah
Loves to my jiemei. went to the flea market today of all the blogshops! bought a nice shoulder bag! =D hahaha. thanks to my bargaining skills. i wun paiseh one okay! =P cynthia will probably faint knowing i bought my 87th bag.. cant help it. met kc dere. poor boy got lost. HAHAH noob.. last nite he played the piano for me on the phone and i fell aslp. -_- my great ambitions of doing homework went down the drain..
me n meiyun also had great plans to finish homework and go for my first-ever tuition lesson. but then again, there were SHOPS. we tried. ): tried to pull eachother away from the shops. but still. it's like there's this magnet attracting us to the shop. =D we're SHOPPAHOLICS.
tuition was cool! she was like, oh from dunman high? do u knw faith ang...? den i.. OMG SHE SITS BESIDE ME!!!! hahaha. wad a small world! den we had such a sumptous meal in 85marker. it was crazily delicious. lol.
love having talks dat i could say wadever i want without holding back.. love feeling d connection. =)
i want so badly for some time to read. just wanna get out of my own world for awhile.
have you ever looked up in the sky and see shapes in the clouds? i can spend hours just looking at the sky... seeing. i dnknw why im like that. i dnknw why things like the sky, the sea can amaze me. people. we think the world revolve around us, but really, we're just a small peck of matter, a small dot if u see from above. we dun really matter. even without any one of us, even without all of us, the earth wun stop revolving.
me: oh look at that cloud, it looks like a bear. a pooh bear!
kath: nooo it looks like a frog!
me: it's a bear!
kath: it's a frog!
meiyun: it's a CLOUD lah..
us: TSK.
=) u knw what.
love can change a person.
friends can influence.
but family.. makes up who you really are.
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'You're irreplaceable..
whydoesyrworldstillrevolveardhim?
