Saturday, February 10, 2007
spent yesterday with two of the best gurlfrens on earth.. early in the morn till late into d nite. watashiwa totaemo aishiteru meiyun-san and cynthia qinjia des neh! (it's in a new language called eunist)
it was a historical moment, i was earliest. *gasps* well. cynthia's bus got stuck and meiyun got cheated by me abt how long the bus will take.. but it was still so unfair. i was left in front of bread talk carrying 2kg of sweets. yet i cant eat the sweets or buy bread talk cos we're eating breakfast! uggh.
i got attacked by the flag day bunch, and the most embarassing thing happened. i purchased a sticker and pasted it on my file. i din know it dropped, so for the next hour i jus showed everyone who asked me for donation a blank file and give a pissed look. like, OMG. so malu!!
forget it. im never going dere again.
well.. at least the day was fun. the shops the walks the talks. =D not to mention our fruitless yet fulfilling studying plan. lol... & our unique packing of the v'day sweets~! tell me, why oh why did i pick meiyun every year to be my v'day present shareholder, when her artistic talent is... urmms. 0? hahaha. oh too bad meiyun i dun have a taggy so you cant retort.. fume silently bah.
so.. if anyone receieves squashed, out-of-shape roses/sweet packs.. it's made by meiyun. =) mine are the nice and cute ones.
i love shopping! fine, i cant resist temptations.. bought so many tings! we were so amazed during dinner..
cynthia: how many bags you got arh? i thinking of buying another bag, but i got quite alot liao..
me: i dun have alot.. hmm but enough le. maybe can buy another 1 for new year tho.
cynthia: so how many you got..?
me: urmms. the last time i counted, 86.. me n my sister shares bags mah.
cynthia: WAD!!! I GOT TWO BAGS.
me: O.O!!
LOL.
and so we tried to find cyn a bag, but her theory goes.. if she feels the need to ask for the price, it means she doesnt really like it. if she doesnt see the need to ask for the price, it means she doesnt like it AT ALL.
LOLOL.. i give up.
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
there are so many things in the world worth being sad abt, but there are even more things worth to be happier about..
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
like even though u have terrible pple in ur life
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
u also have great friends like us!
I am not sure that I will fail my Math and Chem test! I KNOW it. says:
or we can gang and cheat *** money!
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
OMG cool!
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
okok eunice san u be the lead
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
i fu ze fang
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
cynthia fu ze feed
I am not sure that I will fail my Math and Chem test! i KNOW it. says:
then we get weifu distract him!!
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
weifu is part of our ally! HAHAHA.
weifu is part of our ally! HAHAHA.
eunice ♥ it's nt how good you are, but how bad you want it. says:
=D omg. i love you all.
HU MEIYUN if you would just get out.... OPENTABLEPLAYMJ! says:
anyway who needs *** when youve got us
I am not sure that I will fail my Math and Chem test! i KNOW it says:
like that better!
bwahahaha. yes indeed, slogan of life... OPEN TABLE PLAY MJ!
i so love helium balloons!!!
alright, so i've got a major chem test tmr, and a major maths test on tue, and im here happily blogging away.. sigh. i jus dnwan to start. feeling blue. =(
bear with me for a while..
i jus feel like rambling on..
i jus feel like rambling on..
i must say im impressed. it must have been difficult for you to take the first step, sth i've never dared to do.. it might or might not work out, i rly dnknw. it seems like it's sth dat has gone on forever, sth that wun change. but acty it's not sth worth losing sleep over... we'll all try.. so im sure things will get better.. x)
i wish i could say the same for someone else. i find it incredibily sad, that it has become so hard.. even just a simple greeting on the upcoming special day makes me nervous.
you said it was a barrier neither of us is willing to cross..you said to just leave you alone cos we're nothing but a bad pile of memories to eachother.
why din you ask how i feel.. i tried to say. but you din listen. you brushed it off as my rubbish. you think im saying it like a lie. you think it's easy for me to say all that. when in truth it's taking me everything i had, and i jus cant do it again.
im scared. afraid to approach you. afraid im the only one who still wanna try. afraid that i'd say the words from the bottom of my heart.. and you'd trample all over them. im afraid of your cynicalism. im afraid you'll get mean, like so many other times before. im afraid you simply doesnt care, and then i'll just be a laughing stock.
im afraid to make myself vulnerable.
it seems so much easier, to just sit back and let it go. as the days go by and weeks, months, even years, rush on.. who knows? we might forget we once knew eachother.
but today i suddenly realise.. i don't want to forget.
man's worst enemy.. is memory. bitter memories that makes me cringe. even the fond memories, the crazy times we both said we'll nv forget.. it just brings back a sad smile. the walks and the talks that made me feel like no one could ever understand me better... it puzzles me why two beings who were so connected could just.. lost it.
it hurts. and i dnwan to think abt it.. i believe you don't too. it happened too many times. too many tears shed. too many bad emotions. will it be better for both of us to just forget abt the entire existence of our friendship?
i dnknw. but isnt the blatant truth there.. that we're hurting becos we still care?
the bottom line is.. does it matter?
does it matter that we used to be so close. having so much to say...
does it matter that now we just wanna walk away?
it does to me.. so i will. i will try. i need to. i need to tell you dat i meant everything, no matter how you mock my words. i need to tell you dat i'll alws be dere, even if u dunwant it anymore. but i cant keep trying and trying... i dun have that much stamina.. im tired already.
it really aint easy. and sumtimes i wonder why i try. if u still wish for me to leave you alone, i'll go, i promise. but i'll alws wish u well from afar. cos that's wad friends are for. frensforever, i said it. i meant it.
and yes, thanks girl. you inspired all this.
emo. emo. emo.
BLESS MY HAPPY HOME. it's omfg. red in colour...
AND MY FAMILY SHIRT IS YELLOW THIS YEAR. OH WAD THE HELL.. DADDY CLAIMS IF HE WEARS PINK THE GIRLS WILL FLOOD HIM. LAST YEAR WE LOOK LIKE ORANGES. THIS YEAR WE'LL LOOK LIKE BANANAS! like, ewwwwww.
next year we should just get transparent. it'll be a nicer colour den wadevr is the supposedly lucky colour.
why cant they ever learn.. that.. PINK is the answer?
xP
Boo. and i still dnwan to study. HELP.
