Tuesday, February 13, 2007
it started with a tear. and ended in tears. "face it lah, crying doesnt help."
"she very easy cry de lah. think think think den cry le."
"you're different from all my frens. dere's alws sth bothering you."
"why you cry!!"
"it's not like those waters hurts anyone but you rite.."
"seeing you cry everyday just disturbs people.. you know.."
"you know i very often see you like that?"
"do you really feel like crying, or is it just a way to get wad you want?"
"dont cry."
"dont cry."
"dont cry."
"no use crying"
"tears wun help"
"it's jus a sign of weakness"
"don't cry."
"don't cry."
"don't cry."
many many many different voices. does the words seem familiar? i wouldnt know.
u might have forgotten you said it, but these words come back to haunt me. repeated again and again. until after that day i vowed never to cry in front of others again..
i couldnt. i know tears are useless, but wad else can i do...? tears are the only answer i have to all my problems.. the only respond i could possibly give.
i thought i had forgotten how to cry.
but i guess i don't want to. =)
why will i? i'll laugh when i want to. i'll cry when i want to. i'll live the way i want.
i don't wanna have to be a masquerade or hide my tears becos of wad others think.
yes. i cry too much, too easily. but it's cos im eunice.
tests were horrible. total wate of my hardwork.. im basically sturggling with everything now. new year seems more like a chore than it's usual enjoyment. life's hard.
but im happy. HAPPY-I-N-G.
me n my jiemei's motto: shi4 shi4 nan3 liao4! (everything is unpredictable)
u might jus die tmr! and don't you want to die happy? be happy today!
and tmr's v'day!! i can hardly wait.. =) angel mortal games. presents. sweets! yeayeayea.
Much loves to spastic Ms. Tang!!
for being my bestie cum dearie!
for never failing me.. alws being dere.
for the walks the talks the shops.
HANNIE. i cant wait to hear abt your v'day. i bet hot kisses were involved. HAHAHAHA. WITH ME LAH U THINK CROOKED FOR WAD. MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.
happy v'day darlings!
