heyyyys! it's me again. eu!


imagine if you're the winner of a grand prize of an lucky draw.. everyday, you get $86400 deposited into your bank, and there's no control as to how you're gonna use it. The only condition is that the amount of money you don't spend dissapears. won't you spend the $86400 given to you everyday wisely? or will you just let it disappear...? will you be scared that one day, you'll wake up and find no $86400?



same thing. everyday, we get 86400 seconds given to us, totally free. it cannot be saved for another day. will you spend every second wisely, or will you sit and watch them fly by? most of us just think.. "there's always tomorrow." but what if one day you go to sleep and never wake up? what if there is just no more 86400 seconds for you one day... you wouldnt waste a dollar, but you would waste a second.. why?



haha.



today the zuowen topic is "teenagers nowadays are fortunate." i know all the things to write, all the cliche "no war, no national disaster, no worries" thingy. but somehow, i just don't think we're fortunate at all... yea, we have good studying systems, we produce talents and good citizens. but.. compared to other teens of other times, other countries, i cant help but feel like i have so much less. my world now revolves around school, and family. it might be considered a good life, but i nv knew what was bad. i nv knew what war felt like, i nv knew what it was like to just do something wild and crazy without worrying.. if u put me in the real world, i doubt i'll survive.



instead now im just stressing over stupid things like tests and projects and wadever crap. it feels like hard work never guarantees results. so much for the integrated programme. it basically means you skip o'lvls and do alot of bull instead. im sick and tired of all the crap the school conducts, yes yes i appreciate the effort, but im so not in the mood for workshops, excursions, & camps! just let me study will you... first you strip us of our time, you dun drill us as much, den you complain we aint doing well.. like, wth. it's sick when every teacher comes in and says the same thing. YES i know we aint doing well.. but it's not like we din try right? ROARness.



damn sian lor. and im still visiting my relatives every other night to bai nian. honestly, i think im related to half of singapore, one way or another.. i went to this so-and-so house and i saw a mediacrop artiste. LOL. i nv even knew...! and know what's the funniest thing? im his aunty. like, omg. dat's what happens when your mum has thirteen older siblings who are all grandpeople now. lol.





on a different note, im beginning to like eds dance more and more. =) it doesnt feel nice not to be in a prestigious cca.. like when our class goal includes "gold with honours" due to all the hard-core banders, weifu was like, YAH RIGHT. EDS SURE SPOIL IT ONE. wahhh lao..! alright.. so maybe i've got to admit our chances of gold with honors is as slim as me suddenly floating to the moon, but STILL.. we can hope right? at least we have nice people.



We finally completed our dance on monday!! omygawd i cant help but cheer out loud when i FINALLY heard the closing music... we've been hearing the opening bars for so many months.. finally hear the end liao.. i like our dance... =) loads of polishing to do though. and my knees are like, permanently bruised now. ouch. & sore neck and feet doesnt help.





to someone out there, who should know who after reading someone out there, don't. i know you're feeling confused now. but actually.. the way i see it, no amount of thinking or talking about it helps. even making up your mind wouldnt help. i don't know how to tell you. but it scares me that you don't trust, that you don't mind. i don't know if you like distance, cos a long time ago you chose just-for-fun over true. so why think so much?


i bought a postcard holder the other day, and i went to dig out all my postcards... yes i kept them all. i love postcards! haha.. we were so close, what went wrong?
will i receive one from you? hint hint! x)


wad a wordy post. alright i'll reward you with a picture dat got my mum and sis going AHHHHHHHH!!! (okay lah me too)






OMG he's really my eyecandy. :) super duper cute.

mock nafa today..! nafa's a nightmare to some, but simply a test to me. i still feel nervous, though i know i will ace.. cos i jus wanna jump/reach the few extra cms.. do more pull ups and situps. persist and run. hehe yeehan should know! we challenged eachother in sec1 to do >35 pull ups in 30secs. and to my surprise, we succeeded. nafa taught me that everyone has different physical abilities though.. sit and reach requires so much more effort to me than any others. but it's a breeze for other people. =(

sth din go my way today. and i got upset. it's been long since i got emo. in the end it was just a silly misunderstanding, but i felt surprised at myself for letting such a small thing affect me.. =x



prayer of francis: god, grant me strength to accept the things i cannot change.

it shouldnt matter. but it does.
i thought i din care anymore. but i do.

but what matters is not who was dere, but who will be dere.