it's 1.23 am now. i still have a chinese book review, 2 online tests, a MATHS test and a bio test to study for. i woke up at SIX am this morning.... AND it's a SATURDAY. i lead a sad life. =(

haha. im not functioning very well now, but i've got a lot to say! yes yes i know any soul reading this would so prefer to feast their eyes with pretty pictures, but im so lazy to upload, so all i'll do is to bombard you with words. muaahaha.

i promise pictures tomorrow. =) cos it's the much awaited wedding dinner of my youngest uncle!! i cant wait. pretty gowns. high heels. stockings. make up. hairstyling. yeah. we had the tea ceremony this morning. awwwwwww they look so happpyy. i want to get married. like, now! pls queue up if u wanna marry me!! HAHAHA. im sure there'll be longgg queues.

but im alws left with a fear. if ppl can change so much before and after a relationship, what abt a marriage of a lifetime commitment? how do you ensure that a marriage stays healthy and sweet forever? how can you be so sure who's the one to spend the rest of your life with...? i asked my mum.. but she was like, you've still got another half of ur life to live first! why worry!! you'll know when the right one comes.

i hope so. =)

recently i've been sick.. nothing unusual, since there's a flu going around, and my body has alws been weak to viruses. i hear belinda's sick as well.. do take care, everyone. it sucks to be sick.

isnt it funny how people often neglect their health? like, it's alws been the bottom of ur worries, den suddenly BOOM it becomes the top. i mean, to me, food goes into the mouth and disappears. i dun like to think of the oily stuff ruining my kidneys or heart or wadever. but wad if my kidneys, hearts or intestines goes on strike? wad if one day my body turns against me and i tio cancer? wad if all my hair drop off? NOOOO. but aiyah, i say only. wun so suay de lah. =P now that im well again, im already planning kfc tmr and i still refuse to eat vegetables! hehe. ^^ yesyes i deserve death.

but yea, jus think of all the sick children in the world n rmb how lucky we are... we'll nv fully uds wad they're going through.. =( so instead of saving the 2 dollars for an ice-cream or sth, why not give it up for the sick or needy? im doing flag day soon. get the hint. =D

life has been busy busy busy. believe it or not, i din miss school even tho i was sick... when last year i would have jumped at the chance to miss school.. it jus seems like there's too much to miss. movies. lessons. friends. dance. running. laughing. yes im very happy. and proud to say im making an effort, at the very least.

but there're some days i look at all the people, all the homework, and i jus feel like exclaiming.. is this all dere is to my life?! alws rushing for something. never having time to do whatever i feel like doing. uggh.

talked to a few frens.. and i realise that this is life bah. everyone has a different tale to tell.. everyone has got to learn somehow, somewhere. dere's a time and place for everything.. PIRORITIES IS THE WORD.

everyear on teacher's day, me n my pri sch frens meet up in prmiary school, and we all say how nice it's d be if we just had one day, jus ONE day back at primary school. but come to tink of it, we all hated our lives back then, claiming we couldnt wait to get out of there. do you realise that everyday life now, the life you complain abt.. is sth u'll nv have again? that it'll one day become used-to-bes. never-to-bes. treasure every moment. for every 60 seconds of sadness, u lose a minute of happiness..

only be affected by things that'll stay with you throughout ur life. sumtimes i jus don't know why i cant "just don't care lah".. but then again, like wad my fren says, if i can heck care abt other people's emotions and everything, i wouldnt be ME. x)

i remember the look in your eyes...

will the day that im waiting for come?