When it's time to choose between what is easy; and what is right, which will you choose?

there's someone out dere whom i alws quarrel with becos of this.. to me, i'll alws do whatever i feel like doing, cos dere's only one life and one chance to live, and i dnwanna regret. but to that person, it's alws what is right.

i nv understood why.

but i did something incredibly stupid yet brave today. it was very uncharacteristic of me. I noe i'll most probably cry myself to sleep later. why, i might even look back and regret. but. i noe it was the right thing to do. and i noe if that person were to know of what i've done, he/she will be proud of me.

but acty, it doesnt matter. cos im proud of myself. :)

im learning. dat sometimes you cant just do wadever you like to. laws and rules aint dere to be broken, dere's such a thing called consequence. even if dere're no rules, there're such things called discpline. integrity. and conscience.

maybe all these is just a part of growing up. learning to make the right choices. i HATE choices. but everyone has a choice sometimes, heck, we're faced with choices everyday. when u choose whether or not to jay-walk, you're not thinking, ACCIDENT. sumtimes it doesnt matter whether there're consequences, cos YOU noe. and slowly it'll engulf you. you'll think you can get away with everything.

like me. but sumtimes it's better to be safe than sorry. sometimes doing the right thing makes you feel a little lighter. :)

on a totally different note, life's been great...!

i like phonecalls. :) and anime. and books. and shopping. getting all excited over cheap bargains. went out with frens to buy stationery d other day, omg we bought so much! i tink i bought enough for the rest of my life. :D

i spent the whole day out today.. went to visit many people and played, shopped.. :D and i was 1hr40min late in meeting cherry n meiyun for dinner. omg so sorry! :x

teeheehee. thks cherrie i enjoyed the performance tonite, alot. the acting, dance, effects and music were all great. =) for a moment there, i wondered how it would feel to be up dere, performing for a purpose..

i often break down when i listen to beautiful church music, i dnknw why. it feels like sth fragile inside me is broken, yet understood. it was in the same place a few yrs ago when i said the prayer, and became a christian...

yet time passed, life moved on and i slowly lost faith.

i hope i din disappoint you today, cherry.. cos i din say the prayer. sitting dere with all the other children of god, it became clear to me that i simply wasnt ready yet..

i don't know if god had planned it, but people like yeehan and me are family-loving people. dere's no way we can forsake our families, or even cause problems..

maybe the day will come when i become truely aware of where my direction in life is, what religion to follow. but right now, im just a very confused 15-yr-old, and i jus don't wanna tink abt it.

meanwhile, i feel like im truely quite blessed by the people up dere. great family, great frens, great life. maybe not perfect, dere ARE problems, but oh well. dere's more than enough reason to be happy.

=D

this has been a very very long-winded post. hahaha. EHHH. MY blog wad so no word limit de lor. i can go on and on and on. =D Muaahahahahahahahahahhahahaa.
okok. acty i noe that hannie will read till here.

=)

im worried for you girl. you sounded quite troubled and tired on the phone.. so unlike you. been a long time since me n cherrie last saw you... cos you keep blowing our appointments off last-minute.. zzz. but oh well, life's quite tiring for you now isnt it, with work and training and **. and it's hard to stay angry at yeehan. haha. we uds lah, but do take care of urself..!!

dere seems to be many problems for you now.. you can alws rant ur complains or unfairness here. or give me a call! x) quarrels cause disharmony afterall.. you may feel it's unfair but try ur best to ren or jus have a good talk? meanwhile, noe dat we're praying for you kae.

loves!

-Eunice.