siannage ! i want to cry out loud now. my computer got reformatted the second time this year ): so there goes my songs&pictures&informations. what makes my heart breaks most was the netball information ive saved in my computer. i remember staying up till the next morning, collating everyone's contacts and attendance, and also our games' performances. there goes everything. and the point is, i dunno where i put my attendance list. my house is not big, i will be able to find it soon huh ! =/


how do you feel when you look at that picture with two empty swings ?

i think i felt a sense of insecurity, no sense of belonging and a little bitter memories of childhood.
yet at the same time, i think i saw hope&chance in everything we do. i don't understand why, chances just cause someone to indulge in a world of self denial, and they just won't be able to change. and yet, being harsh and restricting them more, will result in a more disastrous effect. sometimes it is, sometimes is isnt, i just dun wish to think any further. because of the lies you've said, and the pain you've inflicted in everyone.

damn it,
tell me what's on your mind when you are smoking ?

if you want to know how much it hurts the people who care, perhaps if you are not too cold blooded,
i would share that cigg with you,
to let you know how it feels.

-hannie